On the hunt...


...for a job that is. I have another interview tomorrow. This interview is with another county for a support staff position. I am excited abut getting back in the work force. I will miss being home with my babies everyday, but I know this is what I need to do.

I also know that once I go back to work my weight loss will go faster.

My goals for this week are
  1. get a job
  2. exercises 5 days
  3. stay on top of my laundry
  4. keep my room clean
  5. work out my debt free plan
Gotta run baby is fussing.


My 1st 5k....

I did it. I ran/jogged my 1st 5k today. It was so hot and so hard, but I got it done. My goal was to finish it in under 45minutes. My time was 42:23. We arrived at the park around 730am. I got registered and got my number bib "626". We stretched and then there was a short wait before the run. Then the race began. I ran almost the entire way. I would have ran the entire thing except for the fact that I pushed it too hard up the last lil hill. I was so out of breath. I know I was busting my butt because this a.m at 630am i weight 210.8# and when I got home I weighed 208.8#/ That is a 2 lb loss even after eating a bagel, a banana, a small muffin, 1 pint of water, and a 12oz powerade.

I definitely felt a bit unprepared. I think my Nike plus does not keep accurate count of my running. I say this because when i got done running the 3.2 miles my nike + showed that I had run 3.9 miles. So I had an overinflated sense of what how far I could run. Talk about disappointment.

But I disgress. I did it and now I can do it again. I will get faster in time. I have only just begun to really do this and I need to recognize that these things take time.


5k tomorrow

So it's that time. I can't believe it. My first 5k is 2morrow.
It has been 2 long months getting to this point. I am hoping I can run the entire way. I slacked off towards the end so I am curious if I can pull it off.

Here is my progress:
prec25k weight 216.6#
C25k Start Date 4/21/2009
Week 1 miles 8.05 Week 2 Miles 8.79 Week 3 Miles 7.52 Week 4 Miles 8.24 Week 5 Miles 5.89 Week 6 Miles 7.18 Week 7 Miles 5.3 Week 8 Miles 1.09 Week 9 Miles 3.28
Total miles 55.34
Post c25k Weight 211

I have a lot 2 do and i do not even know what I am wearing for my run. :-)


What to do Wednesday

I am up and moving. In a good mood and trying to get my day in focus. I didn't weigh in this a.m. because I went and had my breajfast then remembered I wanted to weigh in.

Here is my breakdown

Here is what I ate yesterday Tue 06/23/09

  • 8am bagel with 1/2 tbsp cream cheese 250
  • 1pm ham sub 700 (950)
  • 630pm burgr no bun and fries 400 (1350)
  • 930pm teddy grahma cookie 100 (1460)

My exericse consisted of:

  • a total of 30 minutes on the stationary bike
  • a total of 15minutes of running & walking on the treadmill
  • a total of 15 minutes on the stepper

My to do list....

  1. workout --45minutes
  2. laundry
  3. contact UWF about program form
  4. dinner
  5. office paperwork
  6. read other peoples blogs & comment
  7. count my calories
  8. straighten bedroom
  9. look for job
  10. do something with/about my hair
  11. pay bills
  12. drop off girls
  13. pick up girls

My interview is rescheduled to 8am on Friday. I am nervous and excited. I want to be really prepared. I am going to review my notes and be totally ready. I am believing for this job. I am out for now. I have so much 2 do as you can see and it is already 10:20am.



No I am not talking about the WW program. I am thinking about how to keep moving forward in my weight loss efforts. I get going good and then start to lose steam. I need to find more ways to keep the momentum. I am interested in seeing how counting calories work for me. I know it sounds silly but I really did not want to do it that way. I wanted to eat intuitively... but my food intuition is way off apparently. I am not afraid to admit when I am wrong. SO I am moving forward.

Here is what I ate yesterday Mon 6.22.09
  • 8am bagel with 1/2 tbsp maragine 250
  • 11am grilled cheese and soup 350 (600)
  • 2pm small apple 70 (670)
  • 530pm salad 180 (850)
  • 830pm 3/4 pint of ice cream 510 (1360)
  • 1130pm 1/2 bag of sunchips 110 (1470)

My exericse consisted of:
  • a total of 30 minutes on the stationary bike
  • a total of 30 minutes of running & walking on the treadmill

My to do list....
  1. weigh in--209.8
  2. workout
  3. laundry
  4. make kids lunch
  5. contact UWF about program form
  6. dinner
  7. office paperwork
  8. read other peoples blogs & comment- made it to 4 ppl blogs
  9. count my calories
  10. get outfit for my interview
  11. do something with/about my hair
  12. pay bills
  13. look for a job--> applied to 1 so far
  14. post office
  15. walmart
  16. gas up car
  17. lunch with son
  18. upload paperwork to county I have interview in
  19. drop off and pick up kids from VBS
In the spirit of ending this post on a positive note. This is my 100th post. I am excited that I sticking with posting pretty regularly. I am also thankful for the lovely people who read and follow me. You all keep me honest and help me stay motivated. I feel like blogging is a key component to my weight loss program. It is great to have an outlet like this.

Awwww man.. I almost forgot to mention it. I have a job interview on Friday. I am very excited. This position would be awesoem for so many reasons. I ned to work becuase I want to get outta debt, make a nive rainy day fund, and be able to do more for my kids. I also am looking forward to havingf adult conversation. I love my kids but its time for me to focus a bit more on me. This position would be great because it is a new school and I love the scenario because I wouldn't be the only new person. We all start on an even playing field. I also enjoy being in a school and helping it growing from the ground up. I have done it once before in my career and it was an awesome learning experience.


Every day..

....is a chance for a new start. And 2morrow I start fresh and I have plans to do what I can to make my life better. I have also decided to include my daughter. She and I are going to work together to lose weight. We are going to count calories and exercise 2gthr. So I will have an interesting dynamic to my posts.

Any who.... what do I want to get done tomorrow...? Good question. Some stuff I already had on my list from last week and a bunch of new stuff. :-)
  1. weigh in--211.8 43.3%body fat
  2. workout--60minutes
  3. laundry
  4. schedule interview with Montclair
  5. make kids lunch
  6. contact UWF about program form
  7. scan bank statements
  8. mail bank statements
  9. dinner
  10. office paperwork
  11. read other peoples blogs & comment



1. an act of satisfying; fulfillment; gratification.
2. the state of being satisfied; contentment.
3. the cause or means of being satisfied.
4. confident acceptance of something as satisfactory, dependable, true, etc.
(taken from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/satisfaction)

I have been thinking about this word all day. Like what does it mean to really be satisfied. I sometimes feel in my own life I am never quite satisfied with anything or anyone. What does that really say about me? I do not, though, see myself as a perfectionist. Because I am far from complusive about things being perfect. I feel like everything in its normal state is just less than.

Maybe that is why I have yet to really reach my full potential where my weight loss is concerned because I feel that I , like everything else in my world, am less than. So why bother. The irony, in my opinion is that most people who know me would see me as an optimist. I guess I see myself as a realist.

I gotta ponder this further.

Weigh in whoas

Ok its my weigh in day. I did get on the scale but do not feel like talking about the outcome. I am not surprised. I am disappointed in myself. I want to be consistent in my diet & exercise. I deserve to be a success story but no one can do it for me. I am not stopping or giving up on my self. This is just a setup. I am officially going to face my demons and do what I do not want to do. What is that you ask? I am going to track what I eat. I need to do it because I need to face up to what I am eating.. and why I eat when I do.

Here is what I want to get done today....
  1. upload Lamar's pics
  2. contact UWF about program form
  3. drop off kids
  4. scan bank statements
  5. mail bank statements
  6. look for a job
  7. send pics 2 walgreens 4 nonni
  8. send pics 2 walgreens 4 lamar
  9. laundry
  10. pick up kids
  11. dinner
  12. workout
There are some items that have been on my list all week, but I have done other stuff that is not listed here. Like i got my fathers day shopping for my hubby done yesterday. So I am a lil productive.

Oh yea.. I am still sore. I could barely walk yesterday. It sucked. I have to speak with my new tainer. I haven't been running andmy 5k is this weekend. I will get through iut but not as strong as I had hoped. So what did I weigh...?

214.4# 42.3% body fat.
up almost 3lbs. I am sure that weight is combo of my eating, lack of exercise, and some water retention from the sore legs.

I will do better.

820 210c bagel
1000a 160c cereal ( 370c)

Weight Loss Goals and Plans

My plan: To lose 20 lbs. in 20 weeks
My goal: To reach -70 lbs. or weigh 150

Weekly weigh ins....
03/01 221.0# 46.7%
03/08 220.2#
03/15 219.6#
03/20 219.0#
03/27 217.6# 45.9 Bodyfat% (67.6# left to lose overall)
04/03 215.8# 45.8 Bodyfat% (65.8# left to lose overall) 117#muscle 99#fat
04/10 217.0#
04/17 216.6#
05/01 217.2#
05/08 214.8#
05/15 213.8#
05/22 212.8#
05/29 212.8#
06/05 211.8# 44.7% bodyfat (61.8#s to lose overall) 117# muscle 94# fat
06/19 214.4# 42.3% body fat. (64.4# to lose) 124#muscle 90#fat
06/29 210.4#



Still sore

I saw my trainer on Tuesday for a leg workout and I am still super sore. I didn't even sleep well because I couldn't straighten out my legs. So I am going to work out tonight since I am supposed to weigh in tomorrow. My weight was up 2lbs. I think this is due to my muscles being sore and too much salt. Or I could just be in denial. :-)

I hope to get stuff done around the house so I can feel good about the weekend.

  1. upload Lamar's pics
  2. request UWF send transcript--gotta wait til I get my debit card (dang it)
  3. contact UWF about program form
  4. drop off kids
  5. scan bank statements
  6. mail bank statements
  7. look for a job
  8. send pics 2 walgreens 4 nonni
  9. send pics 2 walgreens 4 lamar
  10. pick up kids
  11. laundry


My next mission...

Well my 5k is less than 2 weeks. So I started to think about what I wanted to do next. I could just add miles and train for a 10k, but i didn't wanna just keep running. I wanted to mix things up. So I decided that I want to train for a Triathlon. Ok pick up your jaw up off the floor. I did my research and learned that there are different kinds of triathlons. I am going to make my 1st triathlon a "sprint" triathlon.

Sprint Triathlon Distances
Swim Bike Run
750m 20m 5k
0.47mi 12.4 mi 3.1 mi

So I am slowly beginning to incorporate bikng and swimming to my weekly routine. The program I found says you need to be able to swim for 20minutes, bike for 30 minutes, and run for 20 minutes straight before starting. So that is where I am at. I am strong, sorta kinda, in biking and running. Swimming...well not so much.

Here is my to do list:

  1. upload Lamar's pics
  2. request UWF send transcript--gotta wait til I get my debit card (dang it)
  3. contact UWF about program form
  4. drop off kids
  5. pick up kids
  6. laundry
  7. dinner
  8. continue job hunt
  9. call back some schools
  10. workout-60 mins so far today


to do 4 Tuesday

here is what I have planned

  1. drop off kids
  2. gym with trainer
  3. get ink for printer
  4. request UWF send transcript--gotta wait til I get my debit card dang it
  5. contact UWF about program form
  6. more laundry
  7. apply for jobs
  8. make contact sheet 4 job hunt
  9. dinner
  10. pick up kids
  11. upload Lamars pics
  12. get missing groceries
I woke up in a good mood, even though I was and am still sleepy. My day today is going well. I am feeling really focused on finding the right job for me. I also need 2 count my blessings. The kids seem to be enjoying vacation bible school. I am relishing in having time to myself.

Manic Monday

I have big plans for today.

Here is my to do list:
  1. mail thank you notes--done
  2. mail FETC scores--done
  3. laundry---with 8 ppl in the house this will never be done
  4. request UWF send transcript
  5. contact UWF about program form
  6. get a job--still looking
  7. cook dinner---done
  8. put away baby clothes
  9. workout
  10. drop off kids---done
  11. pick up kids---done
  12. dry cleaners---done
  13. bank---done
by 615pm I had 7 things done. Some stuff is ongoing. My 2 do list is never going 2 really be finished I feel good about what I did accomplish.


Why yes I was. I got some important stuff done. So much so that I am still awake thinking about what I wanna get done this week.

Friday I went on a recruitment tour. I am looking for a job. I am looking forward to going back to work. I liked the tour and I am really optimistic about my job prospects.

Saturday I went to a career workshop. I got more information and I have totally revamped.

Sunday I went shopping for the next 2 weeks and gased up the car.

But.... I did not get to exercise. Oh well. I will be at the gym tomorrow. I have an appointment with the trainer on Tuesday.


Scale is up 1 lb. I am not surprised. Something is wrong with me...in my head I mean. I knew it was my weigh in and I ate 2 dinners last night. It is like I wanna be able to prove the entire diet community wrong. I wanna be able to eazt what I want and still lose weight. Well duh thats not gonna happen.


Thinking Thursday

I woke up in a good mod. I don't know why because the scale was up almost a pound and weigh in tomorrow. But hey I do know why....my weight does not and should not define my mood, my happiness, or my lot in life. Even with all that I am dealing with I am very blessed. I sit her and could count my blessings for the whole day.

Come to think of it. That is something I really want to get better at.

I am grateful for:
  • my adorable kids
  • my loving husband
  • catching up with old friends.


I think I am addicted to subway. I want 2 eat it everyday. Whats up with that?
Maybe I just like to eat fresh. LOL.
My weigh in is 2morrow and my whole afternoon is spent thinking about food. Ugh, its going to be a long night.

Wacky Wednesday

Ok...My wednesday isnt that wacky. Things have gotten real busy having extra kids to deal with. I felt like I was in a good place with working out and such. But iuts been two weeks since my skids (step kids) have arrived & i haven't quite gotten back in my groove.

I feel like time keeps getting away from me & like I can't get enough stuff done. I have to get more organized and focus on what really matters. Its 11:15pm. Kids are in their areas. My oldest is working on his Philosophy homework. The preteens & teenage kids are watching movies/Tv while goofing around on the internet. The babies are both sleep as is my dear hubby. YAY!

So where to begin. I am still working on preparing for my 1st 5k which is a little morethan 2 weeks away. I am getting more confident in my ability to run the entire way. I ran for 30 minutes straight. My total treadmill workout was 35 minutes and 2.9 miles.

Its been so crazy that i never even posted that I registered for my 1st 5k back almost a week ago. I have 2 get it 2gther.

My laptop died last week. I just it back on Tuesday. yay me. But when my laptop died I had to reformat my Ipod. Ugh. I lost one of my runs. But i did get all the info off of it. Check this out. I got my running stuff in Dec. I didnt do much running until April though.

But so far my shoes have logged a minimum of:
  • 37 workouts
  • 3.28 miles being the farthest
  • 53.68 miles total
  • 16:01 hours
  • 8805 calories


C25k - Week 7

<---The plan---->

Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 25 minutes) with no walking.

06/07/09 MOnday
Location: Treadmill
Walking pace 3.0
Running pace 4.0
Total Time 30:00
Total Distance 2. 39 miles
Pace 12:32min / mi
Calories 380

Date: 06/10/09 WednesDAY
Location: Treadmill
Walking pace 3.0
Running pace 4.0
Total Time 35:00
Total Distance 2.9 miles
Pace 12:04min / mi
Calories 460

06/xx/09 XXXDAY
Location: xxx
Walking pace 3.0
Running pace 4.0
Total Time x0:00
Total Distance x. xx miles
Pace xx:xxmin / mi
Calories xxx


Manic Monday

I have been a bad blogger. My laptop is out for repairs and I miss her. I have to work on my desktop which is upstairs. Its a pain to get to and I can't supervise the kids well. The day started off great I weighed myself and I was down 0.4#. I know its crazy how my body work. I swear when I eat healthy I barely get results. WTH!

I did my Week7 day 1 run of my c25k program. I can't believe that I am week 7. I ran for 25 straight minutes.It was hard but I pushed through it. I did squeeze in 55 minutes of exercise at the gym but i also played outside played badminton for at least 1/2 an hour. So did really good on my exercise.

Hey I know I must be crazy to attach this pic of me braless but hey whatever. I was having fun. Plus I nurse my daughter on demand so i stay braless during the day, in the house, of course. :-) Yes I need a boob lift. i want one so badly after I lose all this weight.

Any who... Lets review where I stand on my June goals.
  1. Junk food free JUNE. Yes I said it. Now I must do it. NO candy bars. NO ice cream. --->well it is easier said then done but Idoin better.
  2. Do at least an hour of activity per day.--Stolen from Tiffany.-- I am achieving this about 50% of the time as well. I am goin to make this week better than last.
  3. Continue c25k ---totally on track despite a hiccup this past weeken thatI resolved.
  4. Drink 100 oz water daily. ---not 2 good. I am about 50-60% of 100oz.
  5. Eat at least 3 fruits/veggies daily.---> so so I need to get 2 the farmers market more frequently.
  6. Register for 5k--completed on 6/4/09
  7. Complete 5k in under 45 minutes. --->I am feeling like I can do it. I am running about 2.4 miles in 30 minutes.
  8. Get under 205lbs. --->in progress
This weeks to do list:
  • start kids on summer brain work
  • apply for more jobs
  • Dekalb Job Tour (Friday)
  • Saturday-Career Development workshop
  • get laptop
  • complete at least 3 runs MON-WED-FRI
  • review budget


Dieting sucks... but Blog Friends ROCK!

I woke up this a.m. to see only a 1lbs loss. I was so upset. I did so many things right this week. I have avoided junk food, been watching my portions, stopped late night snacking, drnking lotsa water, and damnit I am exckusively breastfeeding my 6 month old. The effing weight should be falling off of me. But it isn't. 1 damn pound. I know it is better than nothing but when you work so hard it feels like nothing. I was starting to feel in control of my eating and really proud of myelf. I ws getting peopke telling me that they see the differece in my face and it felt great. I literally cried this morning. It was so disappointing.

But I have to wipe my tears and keep trucking along. I cannot stay this size. I want to love my body again. Ok...maybe not love but like my body a whole lot. So I will see where the next week takes me. i am supposed to run my last run for week6. I will repoirt on that later.

On a lighter, more pleasant note. Robbie over at A Spiritual Connection gave me and 7 other an award. She has a great blog and is very supportive. The award came at the ideal moment for me. There are no acccidents. Now i get the pleasure of passing this award one to 8 people whose blog-kin-friendship make blogging wonderful. Please check them out for yourself.

  1. Monica @ Confessions of a + Sized Girl
  2. Kate @ Kate is Losing It
  3. Sapphire @ Resplendent Life
  4. Tiffany @ From 12 to 6
  5. Jennifer Brindley @ Ex Hot Girl
  6. Ebony @ Project Hot Mommy
  7. Sammy Sue @ Samantha's Saga
  8. Cindee @ Mak'n Changes
Oh well... the day is calling. I am going to figure this out & turn it around.


June goals...

I need to get my act together. I need to focus on doing stuff right. It's late. I will write more later. I will make a confession.

June goals:

  1. Junk food free JUNE. Yes I said it. Now I must do it. NO candy bars. NO ice cream.
  2. Do at least an hour of activity per day.--Stolen from Tiffany.
  3. Continue c25k
  4. Drink 100 oz water daily.
  5. Eat at least 3 fruits/veggies daily.
  6. Read Bible at least 3 times a week.
  7. Register for 5k--completed on 6/4/09
  8. Complete 5k in under 45 minutes.
  9. Get under 205lbs.

This weeks to do list:
  • Complete SBA form-completed at 830am this morning
  • Clothes to dry cleaner
  • Go through office paperwork
  • more laundry
  • email dad
  • complete more financial aid paperwork for son


General thoughts

It has been over a week since my stepkids have gotten here. And I am real thankful for how it has been so far. There hasn't been any arguing or fighting. Maybe its because I'm not pregnant. I have steady hormones. I survived yesterday without any sweets. I was so proud of myself. In the real world people do not get how major it is to not grab a candy bar when you are at walmart. I was with my daughter and i talked myself out of it.

I completed my 2nd week 6 run. It was rough but I finished. I am trying to really make the most of this month and see how it pays off.

I weigh in 2morrow. I think I should be down. I tried to be super good about my eating. I even went and spent 30 minutes in the sauna and swam 5 laps in the pool. I got out of the pool and felt dizzy. I am falling asleep as I type I may turn in early. I am supposed to do my day 3 run on Friday. I am excited and a bit nervous about it at the same time. I am not sure whether I wanna do it at the gym or outside.  I guess it depends on the weather, what time I get up, how i feel... We shall see.. I need to learn what I should be eating before a run. I think that would helkp me alot also. I gotta go and catch up on blogs. 


C25K - Week6

<----THE PLAN---->

run1:Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)

Date: 06/01/09 MONDAY
  • Location: Treadmill @ Gym
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.2
  • Total Time 35:00
  • Total Distance 2. 48 miles
  • Pace 14:04 / mi
  • Calories 410

run2: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes)

Date: 06/03/09 WEDNESDAY
  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.2
  • Total Time 35:00
  • Total Distance 2. 47 miles
  • Pace 14:12 min/ mi
  • Calories 405
run3: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 25 minutes) with no walking.

Date: 06/07/09 SUNDAY
  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 3.0
  • Running pace 4.0
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 2. 23 miles
  • Pace 13:26min / mi
  • Calories xx0

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