4.26.2009

Turning point

My weight was up. I was pset but not surprised. I eat like I am not trying to lose weight. I have been thinking about my food issues all weekend. I feel like I have no self control. But I am not geiving up on myself. I think onre of the things I need to do is get rid of all of snacks in my house. This place should be a safe zone for me and it has not been.

I am thinking about going to an Overeaters Anonymous meeting. Mabe I need more support than I realize. What are your thoughts on this?

4.24.2009

WTH Weigh In

218.8# up 2.2#
195 minutes of cardio
1 weight training sessions

No words right now.... I'll post more late

4.23.2009

Holey Donuts.... I want these.


I do not enter many blog contests because:
  1. Im a mom of 4 and time is of the essence.
  2. Most things I do not want
  3. Im pretty sure I wont win. I am not the luckiest lady around.
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C25K - Week1

Well..I like many before me have decided to post my thoughts on my C25K experience. I will also be copying this post to my blog (stormyvawn.blogspot.com) just for continuity. So this is my next fitness adventure... running a 5k. I am doing this because I wanna be healthy, I also wanna be challenged, and I have always wanted to be a runner. So from what I have seen online this is the way to go.

My first run was on Tuesday, 04/21/2009
Here are my stats:
  • Location: Gym Treadmill
  • Walking pace 3.0
  • Running pace 4.5
  • Total Time 25:00
  • Total Distance 1.36miles

My 2nd run was today. It felt great. I was using a podcast just for the run. It made a huge difference. 4/23/09
  • Location: Gym Treadmill
  • Walking pace 3.0
  • Running pace 4.5
  • Total Time 31:00
  • Total Distance 1.75miles
day3 Saturday 4/25
  • Location: Neighborhood
  • Walking pace ?
  • Running pace ?
  • Total Time 35:00
  • Total Distance 2.17miles
  • Pace 16:05/mi

Day 2.5 Friday
  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace ?
  • Running pace ?
  • Total Time 1:00:00
  • Total Distance 2.77miles
  • Pace 21:37/mi


Do you think that doin walking between the c25k program would be ok?

4.21.2009

Getting back in track...

Sometimes it feels like I am always trying to get back on track with my weight loss, my housework, my life. But I am starting to accept that I am a work in progress. I can't expect perfection but that is unattainable. I also have to find new and improved ways of making my life work better for me. I know that I will falter, but I am ok with that.

I made a schedule for myself for the week. I want to maximize my waking hours and get more done in my day. I have to be careful to not make this a document that binds me, but instead make it one that frees me. Frees me to be my best self.

Here is what my Tuesday should look like...
21-Apr
Tuesday
6am wii fit
7am every1 up
8am b-fast 1egg, .5bagel, 2ham, .5 oatmeal
9am c25k**
weight training
12pm Lunch- Salad&Soup
3pm Slimfast
430pm 3outside time
5pm Cook dinner
Frd Fish
6pm Field Trip Mtg



Biggest Loser

100 calorie bite



Good night

4.18.2009

Climb Atlanta

Well I did it. I completed Climb Atlanta for the American Lung Association. My original goal was to climb the 50 floors / 1150 steps in under 30 minutes. Then... I started training and practicing on the stair climber. I adjusted my tune... just hoping I could finish in under an hour.

It was a beautiful day. My hubby made me a big healthy breakfast of eggs, grits, ham, and 1/2 a bagel with a protein juice. I was nervous, but real excited. We get there and there are several sponsors. I get my tag and my timing chip. I had a monster energy drink and looked up at the building I was going to climb to the top of... ?? I could feel a bit of a shake in my knees. I had chatted with a few ladies in the line who were like me first time climbers and relative non athletes. I must confess I was a bit relieved to know that I wasn't the only one who was a virgin climber. The first climbers went up at 10:00am. I began my ascent at approximately 10:30am. I had my iPod charged and ready to go. I began my climb jamming to BOOTYLICIOUS.

I got a fast start... maybe a lil too fast cause I was exhausted by the time I got to the 8th floor. But I gathered myself, caught my breath, and got back to my climb. With every step I was more and more physically exhausted but emotionally...mentally I was on fire. It was like my confidence was climbing as a kept getting closer & closer to the top. At some point I realized i wanted to document my climb & I started to take a few pics with my camera phone.




I wasn't sure how long my climb was taking. But I felt like it was going at a decent rate. There were times I could feel my heart beating in my chest and times when my thighs were burning. BUt I kept at it. I didnt quit. I didnt give it.

I finished with a time of 19 minutes and 17 seconds...



This is the begining of a fitter, healthier Stormy. Watch out world.
More pics can be found at here.

4.17.2009

Weigh in & thoughts

216.6#
210 minutes of cardio
2 weight training sessions

I have so far 2 go. i'm glad i'm down a half a pound, but still feelin disappointed in myself. Every a.m. I start really strong. I eat a good breakfast. And try to have a decent lunch. I cook dinner most nights. I think it is a combination of what and how much i eat. I also think I need 2 bake and grill more of my foods. I am contemplating doing my own version of nutri system. Picking a calorie limit and sticking to it. Currently I am eating like I am in maintenance mode.

I must make a confession here. I am scared. Of what you ask... what if I can't control my eating...? Because right now its not a issue because I haven't imposed that type of restriction

4.13.2009

Late posting-weigh in

Here are my stats for the past week...

* Weight: 217# up 1.2 lbs
* 5 # of days i worked out
* 260 minutes total worked out
* 4 # days I drank enough water
* 0 # days I logged my food

4.07.2009

Well... it is what it is...

Hubby and I talked and I may be going back to work way sooner than I really wanted to. I must admit it kinda breaks my heart a little thinking about going back to work and having to leave my babies. I have kind of carved out a niche for myself here as a stay at home mom. I actually really like it...except for the struggling financially part. So I have to '"take one for the team" and see if I can help us get back on a more firm footing financially.

I have mixed emotions about the whole 'going back 2 work thing".But most of my feelings are negative just to warn you. I am mad at myself because maybe had I gone back to work earlier things would be better. Then I am mad because I don't really want to go back to work. I am jealous because my husbands 1st wife didn't have to work. I am mad because I wanted to do this on my own terms and I am not getting that opportunity. Then I am a sad about the thought of someone else spending their days with my two little ones. I hate the thought of someone else getting most of their giggles and smiles and cries and drying their tears. I wanna do that.

I wish I felt better about it all. Maybe this personal training things is my best bet for work without having to work a straight 9-5. I am so filled with emotion that I am worn out. I can and will get through this..maybe sleep will help clear my mind. It sure can't hurt.

4.05.2009

Weekend Whoas & Wonders

It was my anniversary weekend so I got to spend some QT with my hubby. All in all it was a good weekend. I did eat 2 much & I will have to work really hard to over compensate for what I ate.

DH and I did have a few words today because in a nutshell I feel misunderstood. I do not think it is too much to expect to have my anniversary weekend be a weekend that does not involve having company. This is the same issue we have had discussion after discussion about. I am so tired that I do not even feel like talking about it anymore. The fact that my simple request for quality time could be so easily disregarded just broke my heart. I know that every marriage is different and myabe this situation would be fine with another woman but it is not fine with me. I try my best to give my hubby my best. I do not do things repeatedly that he would not like or that bother him. I tyr to respect his rules & wishes. Maybe I am not a good wife like I see myself and that is why he feels/see it as okay to do what he does without a second thought.

I just do not know. I do know that I am still upset and it has been several hours. I wish my feelings would pass or change but they haven't. I have been in an unhappy marriage. This marriage is going to last, but I hate the thought of decades of dealing with stuff like this. Please do not get me wrong, I love my husband. And all in all he is a great guy, but it just seems like his priorities and his thought process sometimes are counterintuitive to what is best for our marriage. I wish I could just be okay with every Saturday night spent alone. But I am not. I wish I could accept that I am powerless when it comes to havig people injected in to my world/life when I don't want them. But I can't.

I feel so sad, but at least I was able to give my feelings a voice. Hopefully this voice will help me find the answers I need to find.

On a brighter note, my hubby got a wii fit and we played it a ton this weekend. My son visited form Friday-Sunday home from college. Hubby & I went tout for lunch on Friday & Staurday and out for dinner oon Friday & Sunday.Yay 4 me I didn't have 2 cook.

4.03.2009

Weekly Weigh In

Well i weighed in this a.m. I weighed 215.8#. I am down 1.8#. Yay! I am very glad 2 see the scale going down. I am not sure how much progress that I am going to make this weekend...especially since it is my anniversary. That means eating out & lounging around. I will just have to exercise super hard during next week - Monday thru Thursday.

* Weight: 215.8# I am down 1.8 lb .
* 5 # of days i worked out
* 295 minutes total worked out
* 5 # days I drank enough water
* 1 # days I logged my food

4.01.2009

I've been thinking..***UPDATE****

I have been doing good the past few weeks. My exercise is on point. I feel really great about that. I am studying to take the ACSM certified personal trainer test. I really want to be able to help people get in shape and make decent money in the process. I am taking all of the pretests in the study guide that I bought. Next I will start reading and reading. I am pretty confident in my ability to help people. I want to be able to design effective exercise programs. I want to start weight training this month. Maybe I will look into my review guide and it'll will tell me what I need to know.

I started a new blog. Its my 101 in 1001 blog. Check it out and tell me what you think. I am really in a place where I want to improve and do things to make my next 37 years better than the 1st 37.

I do not ever post bideos but this one reallyhit home for me. Check it out and tell me what you think.


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I do not enter many blog giveaways.
I just don't have much time.
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Her blog is great.
Check it out.
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