5.29.2009

Longest run & Weigh in

<----STATS---->
* Weight: 212.8# ---no change----
* 4 # of days i worked out (2 days short)
* 140 minutes total worked out (not enough dang it)
Cardio: 125min Weight training: 15minutes
* 5 # days I drank enough water
* 0 # days I logged my food

I ran my longest stint ever. 20 minutes straight. I am officially done with week 5 of the c25k program. I am so proud of myself . Today I hope to get the following things done.

  • Appointment with dental surgeon
  • Job interview
  • Lunch at pizza place
  • Ton of laundry
  • Maybe grocery shopping
  • Clean out fridge
  • Go through office paperwork
  • Fax financial aid stuff 4 son
  • Complete SBA form
Items in red are incomplete. Items in green are the ones I have done.

5.27.2009

Way Improved Wednesday






My run went well....
Yay me. I ran for 8 minutes straight 2 times. Just wanted 2 share. Took the kids to an indoor playpark. They all had a good time. Check out the pics.

Funk

Been a funk just wanted to stop in and just let everyone know that I am ok. I am going to the gym in a few for my week 5 run. I am adjusting to having all the big kids home for summer. I hate feeling like i am responsible for keeping them entertained. They just sit around looking bored. UGH. I have to get a new routinr/rhythm now that they are here. Oh yes did i mnetion how much every cooking, work, and mess they make for me. Its not there fault, it is just the nature of kids. How many kids you ask...?
Well... now in the house we have 17yo boy, 14yo boy, 2 12yo girls, pus my 21mo old boy and 6mo daughter. So six kids up for 3 just a month ago. Pray for me. I need it. They need. I also know that all this stresses me out because I still haven't had any bites in the job department. Every bodies cost extra money. I am contemplating making a schedule for them to stick to so they stay outta my way. :-) We'll see how it goes.
Enough outta me 4 now.

5.25.2009

C25K - Week5

<----THE PLAN---->

run 1-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
run 2-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes), Walk 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes)
run 3-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog two miles (or 20 minutes) with no walking.


Date: 05/25/09 MONDAY
  • Location: Treadmill@ Gym
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.2
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 1. 95 miles
  • Pace 15:18 / mi
  • Calories 321
Date: 05/27/09
  • Location: Treadmill@ Gym
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.0
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 1. 91 miles
  • Pace 15:42 / mi
  • Calories 315
Date: 05/29/09
  • Location: Outdoor Track
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.0
  • Total Time 31:30
  • Total Distance 2. 03 miles
  • Pace 15:29min / mi
  • Calories 325

5.24.2009

Sunday thoughts

I just wanted to stop by and share some pics I took today of my kids. We went to the park. It was part of my 101 in 10o1 series. I am trying to make the most of family time.

Hubby worked on the Chevelle yesterday. I despite many obstacles went for a run. I finally went to the indoor mini track at a park around the corner from my house. I can't belive that I am 4 weeks done and about to start week #5. Yay me. This next weeks runs are goin to be challenging, but I am excited about it. I have less than 5 weeks til my 1st 5k.

I guess my uneventful weekend is obvious, huh.

5.23.2009

Weigh in -:-)

212.8# down another pound. It is only a pound but I will take it . Especially when I only worked out 2 times in my week. So, I have removed all junk food out of the house....except for the damn chocolate bunny. Added lots fruits and veggies to my kitchen cupboard. Now I gotta get back to busting it out at the gym. I think I can really see an improvement in my numbers if I get my workout regimen back on track.

<----STATS---->
* Weight: 212.8# down 1lb
* 2 # of days i worked out
* 90 minutes total worked out
* 4 # days I drank enough water
* 0 # days I logged my food

Anyway... no time to chat it up as I am heading to the gym as we speak .

5.20.2009

Can you keep a secret?

I have some things I wanna get off my chest.... but only read on if you can keep a secret.

Secret #1

I wanna wear shorts. I just wanted to get that off my chest. It is messed up because when i was a normal size there were so many things that I took for granted and didn't even pay attention to. Like buying clothes at a normal store without any issues. Can't wait 4 those days either. But I was just thinking how I can't wait to wear shorts without embarassment. I am going to mow the yard with my oldest son and wish I had shorts. Maybe I can find some long biking shorts especially good to go running in. My thighs are so big but they are shrinking. . . . slowly.

Secret #2
I mowed the lawn today. OK not all of it..but a nice chunk of it. Whats the big deal you ask? My hubby doesn't want me mowing the lawn. So why did i do it? Well.. I need the exercise especially when (1) I am so close to 210#s and (2) i wanted to prove to him i could and (3) I didn't want him to miss out on working on his Chevelle this weekend. And reason (4) my 21mo old is sick and I probably will be skipping the gym 2morrow. I felt so strong and fit mowing the yard. I know it sounds silly but its true. I can only imagine how great i'll feel with 60lbs off my body. I sure wish it came off faster. Oh well... check out my yard. Looks great doesn't it?













Secret #3

I am addicted 2 sweets. I am so serious. I think about them so much its a shame. I am smart 2 not have any in the house. Its like an alcoholic having beers in the fridge. Its gotta be safe here, but i tell you its hard. I spotted an Easter bunny on the fridge this afternoon .So....I waited til my 18yo son was taking a shower and I ate his head. Stop laughing. Ok you can laugh cuz its funny..a little sad, but also very funny.

Secret #4
I'm too fat for Wendy's and I think I had divine intervention today. I was thinking about getting junk food as I was packing up the kids and the their stroller. Then as I go to lift the stroller up to go in the back of the truck. And the unthinkable occurs. I pinch some of my belly fat in the double stroller. OUCH! That shit really hurt. I figured it was divine intervention. Or a big fat reality check. Like maybe I should avoid fast food if my tummy is so big that it can get pinched by a stroller. Its ok if you laugh... I did.

Thats my confession for today, what secrets are you keeping? You can tell me... I'm a good listener.

5.19.2009

Thinking ahead

I am in the process of becoming a runner. I am so excited about the process. It feels good to be working on week 4 of the c25k program. I have been thinking about what I will do when after m 1st 5k. I figure I will run a few more 5ks then maybe join a running club. Here is my tentative list of runs I plan on doing....

Saturday, June 27, 2009 2nd Annual HBCU Alumni --i only ran this one. I must confess that I fel crappy about it, but I cant look back. I can only look forward and make some changes.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 Run for Life
Saturday, August 22, 2009 5K FOR HOPE ROAD RACE
Saturday, October 3, 2009 Bison Stampede
Saturday, Nov. 14, 2009 Run For Shelter

C25K - Week4

This is how the Week4 Intervals should go: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes), Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)

Date: 05/19/09 Tuesday
  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.0
  • Total Time 31:08
  • Total Distance 2. 31 miles
  • Pace 13:24 / mi
  • Calories 380
5/19 I also did a .72 walk at a 3.0mph pace. I wanna increase my walking speed.

Date: 05/20/09 Wednesday
  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.7
  • Running pace 4.0
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 2. 19 miles
  • Pace 13:42 min/ mi
  • Calories 360
Date: 05/23/09
  • Location: Track @ Welcome All Park
  • Walking pace ???
  • Running pace .???
  • Total Time 46:28
  • Total Distance 3. 02 miles
  • Pace 15:22 / mi
  • Calories 496

5.18.2009

Restructuring

I am behind... on my C25k runs that is. I didn't exercise at all this weekend. This is becoming a terrible habit that I need to break. It makes it really hard to get back to it at the gym when I take 3 days off from any physical activity.


Here is my exercise/workout plan for the week...
Monday -treadmill run/walk c25k- week3 CARDIO ONLY
Tuesday- treadmill run/walk-->c25k- week4 Upper Body Weight Training
Wednesday-treadmill run/walk-->c25k- week4
Thursday-Stationary bike/Swim after Lower Body Weight Training
Friday- treadmill run/walk-->c25k- week4 CARDIO ONLY
Saturday-outdoor run/walk-->c25k- week4 CARDIO ONLY
Sunday-REST

I am also changing my first 5k race. My original plan was to run in the Army Hooah on June 13th. I will by no means be ready. So I found another race 2 weeks later. So now my first 5k will be the 2nd Annual Atlanta HBCUAA 5K Run/Walk and it takes place on June 27th. So I have approximately 40 days to get my ass in gear and in shape. I am excited and nervous about it all.

Oh before i forget... I finally took pics. Not a big difference...but soon it will be.



I was feeling like my curves made/make me look smaller than 215lbs. My boobs look huge in this pic. I so need 2 get a sports bra or two. I also need to get new bras when I am done breastfeeding. I hate seeing my boobs hang too low. LOL. Of the three views.. I hatethe side the most because my stomach looks so big to me & I was holding it in.

C25K Logs

This log is part of my training to run a 5k.
It is part of my 101 in 1001 project.


C25k : The Couch to 5k Program - C25K, is a fantastic program that's been designed to get just about anyone from the couch to running 5 kilometers or 30 minutes in just 9 weeks.

I highly recommend the Podrunner Interval Podcast. It takes the thinking and time keeping out of the c25k Program. And oh yea... ITS FREE !


Week 1- 4 days ran 8.05 miles
--completed on 04/25/09
Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.

Week 2- 5days ran 8.79 miles
--completed on 05/09/09
Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.

Week 3- 3days ran 7.52 miles--completed on 05/18/09
Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds), Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds), Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes),Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)
I really need 2 be more consistent or its going get 2 hard 4 me 2 handle.

Week 4
- 3 days ran 8.24miles---completed on 5/23/09
Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes), Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
I had to condense this week to make upi for lost time the week prior. But I got through it.

Week 5- 3 days ran 5.89miles-completed on 5/29/09
run 1-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
run 2-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes), Walk 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes)
run 3-Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog two miles (or 20 minutes) with no walking.


Week 6- 3 days ran 7.18miles ---> completed on 06/07/09
run1:Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
run2: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes), Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes), Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes)
run3: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 25 minutes) with no walking.


Week 7- #days ran #miles
Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).

Week 8- #days ran #miles
Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).

WEEK 9- #days ran #miles
Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).

C25K - Week3

Program: Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds), Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds), Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes),Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)


Date: 05/11/09

  • Location: Neighborhood
  • Walking pace n/a
  • Running pace n/a
  • Total Time 32:08
  • Total Distance 2. 15 miles
  • Pace 14:55 / mi
  • Calories 350
Date: 05/13/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.2
  • Total Time 35:00
  • Total Distance 2. 05 miles
  • Pace 17:01 / mi
  • Calories 335
Date: 05/18/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.0-3.0
  • Running pace 4.0-5.0
  • Total Time 60:00
  • Total Distance 3. 32 miles
  • Pace 18: / mi
  • Calories 540

5.16.2009

Fresh fruits & veggies....

I got a fresh start to the day. I got up and did some things around the house. My plan was the go to the gym and then to the farmers market. I picked up some major fresh fruits and veggies...

3 grapefruit $1
3 oranges $1
6 apples $2
3 plums $1
1 pint strawberries $2
6 bananas $1
9 mangos $6
3 cucumbers $1
3 red bell peppers $1
4 green bell peppers $1
3lb bag white onions $2
1 head iceberg lettuce $1
2 head romaine lettuce $2
8 plum tomatoes $1
3 zucchini $1
1lb green beans $1
2.5 dozen eggs $3
3 ears white corn $1

Eating fressh fruit & veggies=PRICELESS ...
Just wanted 2 share the pic.

Are You Mentally Ready?

One of the things I love about blogging is reading other peoples blogs. I ran, no pun intended, into a blog N Her Shoes and was lurking as I sometimes do. I read her blog about preparing for a marathon. Her words resonated to me and my struggle to lose weight. There are some many similarities that I thought it was worth adding how her words touched/inspired me. the actual blog title was Are You Mentally Ready? Her statements are in blue. My thoughts/remarks are in brown.

Start out slow
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Take it slow. I know if I keep my pace steady at the beginning my body will thank me in the end. I got this down. I am not trying to lose like 7 lbs a week. I would like 2-3 lbs a week to feel like I am at a reasonable place.

Run my own race. Don't be worried if I see a lot of people passing me. Something I have struggled with in other marathons is thinking I wasn’t going fast enough,because of the folks that were speeding by me! I have to remember, they may be starting out way too fast, so I’ll catch them later at my own pace! When i read other peoples blogs and start to feel down like I am not doing enough..or everyone will reach their before me. I have to do this at my ow pace because everyones race for healthy living is personal.

Don't get too emotional. Try to stay as calm as possible for the first 10 miles. I will need to conserve my mental energy for the ENTIRE race! This is crucial because it is important to work through this all thinking clearly.


Break up the race. Start breaking up the race into smaller segments. It will make the distance and feel more manageable. When I pass the half marathon mark I only have one more half to go, and at the 20 miler mark I could say just a 10k and I am done! OK... I am not so great at this, but I am going to rethink how to break down my weight loss. I have 60-65 lbs to lose. Everyone breaks down their weight loss differenlty. I am unsure whether 10 lbs is reasonable or percentages are better. Any ideas..?

Stay mentally tough. A runners mental toughness will really start to be tested during these miles. I need not to give into periods of self-doubt and discomfort. I need to remember all the training that I have done and have faith in it. I need to constantly think about how hard I have worked and how rewarding it will be to complete the race. Look forward and not behind.I am not the some of my mistakes I am the results of my choices good and bad, but I can, will, and have gotten through worse and I can do this.

Beat boredom. Do whatever it takes to keep my mind occupied: I can sing songs, play mental games, count people, talk to other runners(I am hoping to run along side Meghann).This translates into switching things up and staying dynamic in what I do in terms if exercise, food, etc. I am not one who can do the smae thing in and out everyday.

Think outside my body. These are the miles I feel the most pain! I know will certainly feel tired. I need to let my mind take over from my body and try to focus on the outside -- the spectators, the other runners, the scenery. This healthy living is more than m body. It mental. Its about changing how I see my food choices, my exercise choice, and how I can really improve my life. It is about honoring what I have been blessed with.

Set small milestones. I need to break up the course, mile by mile. Start counting down the miles and the minutes.Every pounds coounts and losing it shoild be honored. I do not wanna take this weight loss for granted. I also know that even when the weight is all off I wil still need to be at the gym and doing the things that will keep me healthy. Because being healthy & living a better quality of life is what this is all about.

Talk to myself. At this point in the race, I need to dig down deep for extra strength. Reminding myself what I have sacrificed( sleep, social time) to get to this point!! I use my blog for all my talking. I also try to talk to my hubby, but he kinda gets it. He tries to understand but since his metabolism is in overdrive its hard for him to get where I am coming from.

Becoming healthy is like running a marathon ---- i need 2 pace myself. I can't expect to just wake up and be healthy one day. I have to take deliberate actions daily...weekly....monthly.... towards a healthy, long, fit, fun life.

5.15.2009

Friday Weigh In


I did it... I do not know how, but my weight went down again. Yay me. I worked out but I know I need to do more. I need to be at the gym working at least an hour 4-5 days a week. I'm going to run 4 days a week and lift weights at least 2. I have been really trying to focus in our doing what works..well at least I have in my mind. My actual steps are a little less impressive.


So... what we my weight. Check it out.... 213.8#. So what did I do to celebrate my loss. Did i work out? Nope. I had eggs (4points) and a bagel (4points) for breakfast. Then for lunch me and dear hubby went to Cheesecake Factory. I had a luau salad. It was worth 18 points. I am allowed 39 points a day according to my boot leg WW calculations. But now I realize itdoesnt even matter because the Linda Fudge cake I took home was worth (32 points give or take). I feel like an idiot for letting food rule me like this. I know that I better than this.

Yes I know 2morrow is a new day. I swear I say it 2 myself on a regular basis. But the big question is when will I do what I need to do on a regular basis....? Why do I resist? I can't really answer that with the fudge cake calling me. UGh. Iam thinking about how to make 2morrow better. Maybe I will go to the farmers market in the a.m. and get fresh fruits and veggies. Maybe a cleanse wil help me. I really don't know. I guess only time will tell.

On a brighter note... I was home with hubby and the babies and it was awesome. The house was really relaxed. He even cooked dinner for us. He is a rock star in my book right now. LOL.
Check out my boys. Oh well... I am goin go and eat that damn cake and figure out WTH is wrong with me.

5.14.2009

Thursdays thoughts

Weight 214.2.#

I'm excited and nervous cause I haven't had a downward trend in awhile. I have been working out and my snacking has definitely improved.
I worked out at the gym today. I had a serious lower body workout. I got a trainer about once a week. The upside is that I get a kick butt routine at least once a week. The downside is that at my gym you can't always be guaranteed the same trainer. I have worked out twice with M and he is good. I told him I wanted a serious leg workout that didn't involve the machines. In my mind, I can do the machine stuff myself. I want some exercises that work multiple muscle groups. He only did 3 exercises with me but that was enough. I felt like I was on Biggest Loser because by my 3 exercise I was ready to pass out or throw up. Crazy, huh. I wouldn't mind sticking with him but he is moving to training at night only. Ugh. He said next week he will recommend me a trainer who is similar to him because I did a training session with A. She was alright but she just took me through a workout on the machines & well crap I can do that myself. So i didn't request her again. Oh well.

I added this pic cause I thought I was looking really cute in my exercise outfit that my daughter got me.

I am curious about my weigh in 2morrow. I really wish I had more control of my eating. I found a website that help me calculate how many points I should be taking in. According to it I should take in 39 points. I get the xtra 10 because I am nursing my 5mo old. Those of you out there who do WW is there any thing I need to know beyond my 39 daily points? I haven't done weight watchers in several years.

Maybe WW could give me the structure I need. I know I am not overeating like I usually would but I am still not eating as well as I would like. It makes me feel like I will not get this weight off. I am so tired of not liking what I see in the mirror. I tried to get those low calorie snacks. Talk about an effing rip off. The box they look normal but check them out. Could they be much smaller. What a load of crap.

I am slow to post this because my mind is a little bit of everywhere. My oldest son just finished up his freshman year in college. He got his grades for this semester. He got a 4.0. I am so proud. He has always been a very smart young man. It is awesome to see him really apply himself. It is like all of my blood, sweat, and tears were worth it. I pray that this continues and my other children do as well as he is doing. He has been through the most of my kids & is resilient as they come.



I've been rambling, but I hope you get the gist.

Someone tweeted this quote and I am totally feeling it.
Each success only buys an admission ticket to a more difficult problem.-Henry Kissinger

5.12.2009

Inspiration....


Weigh in 215.2# done
Breakfast at 630am done. Sent hubby off to work and son to airport to go on his mini-summer vacation before his summer classes start.

I was too tired yesterday to really address some things. First let me thank Ex-Hot Girl for awarding me an inspiration award. It made my smile from ear to ear. I can't explain to people who don't blog how awesome the blogger community is. I get so much support here. It is like I want to be doing my best because I know I've got such wonderful people in my corner. One of my biggest struggles in trying to lose weight was feeling all alone. Now I know I am not alone & its feels great. ....

I was posed with the responsibility of giving this button to people who inspire me to get my booty in gear.

Finding my radiance- She is maintaining a 110lb weight loss and training for a triathlon. 'Nuff said.

The Anti-Jared- He has lost over 200lbs and still feels the drive to keep at it. HIs posts are direct and to the point, but that is why I enjoy reading his blog. Its like tough love.

Then there's Monica at Confessions of a +Size Girl who keeps me honest and listens to me rant and makes feel like I am ok and that I can do anything I set my mind to.

I could list more but I have so much stuff to do around the house. My day started out kinda crappy as my 2o month old decided to wake up at 130am and not go back to sleep until like 3am. So I spent my morning struggling to stay awake. I caught up on the lost sleep from 1045a-130pm. But I woke up in pain form my stupid wisdom teeth extraction. I have been slacking on taking the ibuprofen and I was paying for it until like 430pm. I dread eating (which should be a good thing). I should have been taking this medicine called medrol for swelling but I haven't been to walgreens and I am getting frustrated. Oh well...this too shall pass. My daughter has a program for her school tonight so I decided to use that as my excuse to not cook dinner. LOL.

I have been thinking alot lately about body image. I remember being a teenager and thinking that was heavy and not cute.Looking back I was so distorted in my image of myself. Junior prom- this little black dress was so sexy...if i don't say so myself.

ROTC Summer camp- I was totally invincible. Yes that is me way up there. I wanna feel that invincible now. I have carried, given birth to, and am raising four kids. I have survived a turbelent childhood and a marriage that would have broke a lesser woman. This weight is my final frontier.

I know I can do this. I just have 2 keep my eye on the prize and do what needs to be done.

5.11.2009

Mellow Monday

It was a quiet day at the house. I didnt make it to the gym for personal reasons... I forgot I had a teleconference dealing with my ex (ugh). So I was the happy hosewife. I put away laundry, straighten the kids room, cooked an awesome dinner, etc. So it was a low key but productive day. I still have the playroom to clean. It is a major mess, but oh well.

I am too tired to blog but lemme post my C25K info. My neighboorhood has 2 many hills & I am beat. My mind is full of all of this great stuff to say , but im 2 tired to type it. Hopefully I will get 2 it 2 morrow.

Date: 05/11/09
Location: Neighborhood
Walking pace n/a
Running pace n/a
Total Time 32:08
Total Distance 2. 15 miles
Pace 14:55 / mi
Calories 350

5.10.2009

Sunday evening thoughts....

Weight 216.8#. Yes I know I need to stop eating like every meal is my last meal. Food is such comfort for me. It takes my mind off of whatever is stressing me out. My mothers day weekend was good. A few bumps in the day, but it was alright.

I have been thinking a lot about my kids and how they've turned out. I sometimes feel so proud and sometimes I feel like a complete failure. I have done the best job I know/knew how to do. Especially considering the parents I did growing up. I had no father for all intents and purposes. And my mom... well she was pretty much checked up doing her own thing for many crucial moments in my life.


Food

830am eggs, grits, sausage

1230p salad, bowl of cereal

800pm chicken and rice casserole

10pm 1 pint of ice cream


This week coming up I am planning on starting Week 3 of the C25k program. I can't believe the middle of May is around the corner. I had planned on running in the Army Hooah. It is a 5k race, but I am unsure if I will be ready to run the entire race. I also am kinda sad that I will be doing it by myself. really wanna get some running friends. I had a friend who was gonna run it with me. Ha Ha Ha. It turns out her hubby is coming back from Iraq that weekend. I can't blame her. I am just a bit bummed. I have been doing this fitness thing by myself for awhile. I mean my hubby is supportive but its not his thing. I have internet and blogger support, but my wish/goal/hope is to find a running buddy or two like myself. I have been thinking about trying to get my daughter involved. She is going through adolescence and it is challenging.

Anywho.. it is past my bedtime. More chatter outta me 2morrow....

Sigh...


Weight:216.2 whatever. I'm just glad my official weigh in day was yesterday.

Woke up feeling kinda crappppy & blah. I had joined a running group on meetup.com so I could 'change my peer group'. I went to bed late and woke up 2 afraid to go. I was feeling unprepared and embarassed to even try to go for a run like that. I woke up in a funk and the day was up and down.

Had breakfast with hubby. He went them to help his brother move. I took a 3 hr nap. Woke up hungry and moody. Then we had some family time playing with the kids. Hubby had cooked dinner while my daughter and went for a walk.

Week 02 Day 05 Date: 05/09/09
  • Location: Neighborhood
  • Total Time 27:03
  • Total Distance 1. 23 miles
  • Pace 21:56 / mi
  • Calories 200
When I returned from my walk, hubby put son 2 bed. Then he proceeded 2 get dressed and left 2 go hang out with his brother. Yes...his brothers place. i have blogged about this before so I will keep it brief. We argued (again). What is so difficult about setting boundaries. i understand that he needs guy time but damn every weekend is ridiculous. If i sound like a broke record, I apologize. I just needed 2 get it off my chest.

Food
9ooam steak tips, scrambled eggs, 2 pancakes
330pm orange chicken rice
63opm orange chicken with rice
1145pm banana
1215am 1 pint of cookies and cream ice cream
1230am pepsi

5.09.2009

C25K - Week2

Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.

Week 02 Day 01
Date: 04/27/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace xxx
  • Running pace xxx
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 1. 85 miles
  • Pace 15:54 / mi
  • Calories 311
Week 02 Day 02
Date: 04/29/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace x5.0
  • Total Time 30:00
  • Total Distance 1. 75 miles
  • Pace xx:xx / mi
  • Calories 285
Week 02 Day 03
Date: 05/06/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.3
  • Total Time 30:03
  • Total Distance 01. 65 miles
  • Pace 18:12 / mi
  • Calories 270
Week 02 Day 04
Date: 05/08/09

  • Location: Treadmill
  • Walking pace 2.5
  • Running pace 4.5-4.0
  • Total Time 33:39
  • Total Distance 2. 21 miles
  • Pace 15:10 / mi
  • Calories 360
Week 02 Day 05
Date: 05/09/09

  • Location: Neighborhood
  • Walking pace n/a
  • Running pace n/a
  • Total Time 27:03
  • Total Distance 1. 23 miles
  • Pace 21:56 / mi
  • Calories 200

5.08.2009

Friday Weigh In

Weight: 214.8# OMG !Im so happy. I am down 2.4#.
Days worked out 2

So I guess the wisdom teeth thing helped me more than I realized. I have had to eat slower and get fuller slower. I definitely need to eat slower from now on.

Exercise: C25k training

Food
730am 2eggs with cheese and an onion bagel
1215 steak, rice pilaf, broccoli, caesar salad, diet soda
630 salad and 100 cal snack
715 shaken bake chicken thigh, green beans, mashed potatoes

Things i got done
cleared junk on bottom of stairs
straighten family room, living room
kitchen swept
laundry started
separated meats 4 dinner

Monicology -
Answers to question posed. I didn't really have much to write about & her questions were great.

Do you ever wonder what would change about you if you were thinner or at your goal weight? I weighed my goal weight back in 2002 -03 & it was awesome. I had ate right and exercised to lose 70 lbs. I was confident.
Do you think you'd be the same or way different? I think I would be relatively the same. I would be generally happier because I was in a a unhealthy relationship. I thought losing the weight would make him be faithful. I learned it didn't matter.
How would you dress? I would dress for comfort...just in smaller clothes. It is going to be awesome to be able to shop in regular stores.
Would you still associate with the same people? Yea sure. I think I would probably have some new friends...healthy, fit, exercising type people.
How would you act? I hope I would still be a good person with a positive attitude. I imagine I would be more confident. Maybe walk taller. Look at myself in the mirror more.

5.07.2009

Yay me...my 1st Blog Award


The scale was good 2 me today. 216# So I thought today was going to be an average day, but it turned out really great. I made it to the gym and did manage to work out a little. I was only able to weight train. This was becuz my dear daughter started fussing too much. Oh well.. it was my own fault as I didn't get to the gym until after 10am. I will do better next time.

Oral surgeon said I was healing well. I have to keep rinsing out the back holes in my mouth where my wisdom teeth used to be.

Food
730am 2eggs with cheese and grits
1130am zaxbys chicken salad
600pm chicken alfredo
1000pm small oreo mcflurry

On to the good stuff...

I was given this from Monica.. My CaliforniaFriend whose blog

Confessions of a + Sized Girl.

...is totally awesome. She is insightful, caring, and makes me laugh. SO now I have to pick 5 blogs that I think are super. I will not be redundant and nominate Monica. But she knows I love her.

Ok..the winners (in no particular order) are

Jen @ Prior Fat Girl. She has great contests, funny blogs, and a major dose of inspiration. She has done what I am trying to do.

Lyn @ Escape from Obesity. This woman is a great writer. So many times I read her blog and find myself saying..."Honey, listen to this..." It is like she has lived my life and gets where I am coming from.

Kate @ Kate is Losing it. A real woman whose stories and experiences make me smile. Whether it is ice pops for dinner or an unEFFINg believable day. She is great to read and inspirational as well.

Jaded is thoughtful and entertaining writer. She is making her weight loss happen and making me laugh and thnk along the way. She a more than jade...she is a diamond in the rough.

Losing Waist... is doing just that. She is losing it and learning about herself. She also manages to post some motivational things to make me wanna jeep at the healthy lifestyle thing.

SO please check out my award winners. It was very hard to chose. There are so many talented bloggers out there. The winners need to pick 5 blogger they think are super.

Have a great day.

5.06.2009

Wonderful Wednesday


Weigh in this a.m. was fine. 216.6. I made it the gym after dropping my oldest daughter off at school. I made her stay home and clean her dirty room. I love her but she is such a little piglet. The workout was really good. I am on week2 day 3. I originally thought I would need to do another week of week 2 but I feel like if I do one more run I should be ok with starting with week 3 of my c25k program. I had overdid it the last time by trying to run at like 5.0 which was totally stupid on my part. I do not know what made me think I was ready to be running that fast... but whatever. So for now when I am on the treadmill my walking speed is 2.5mph and my running is 4.0. BTW- i need a jogging bra. I always use the treadmill in the corners of the gym becuse my big knockers are everywhere . And the only sports bra I have is like 3 sizes too small. For real... I end up with double spillage when I wear it. Sad but true.

After the gym, I came home and ended up take some super cute pictures of my youngest daughter. She is growing up way too fast. That special time together really made my day. I know I may be going back 2 work soon so little moments with my two youngest are really precious. I wish I had be afforded this luxury with my first two children.
Food
730 2eggs with cheese 3 slices turkey bacon
1100 fried chcn sald from zaxbys with poppy seed dressing
145 1 cup cookie dough ice
230 1 can Pepsi
630 steak, rice, green beans
930
1 cup cookie dough ice


Photo Shoot


Check out my babies...

5.05.2009

Everyday is a new beginning...




I am going to weigh myself every morning and post it her for the rest of the month. I thought about waiting til Monday...waiting til I started back working out...waiting for the 1st of next month, but no i am going to do it today. My weight, my health, my life is not a game. I am stepping up and facing my weight. My weight is really just a portion of a bigger issue I see in myself and it is a combo of laziness and procrastination. I have gotten too comfortable in this body and the status quo that is my life.

Things I need to get done

  • SBA paperwork
  • call oral surgeon about stitches
  • call music place about daughter violin-1015am
  • put away 1 loads of laundry
  • scan 5 pages of my journals
  • apply for some jobs
  • straighten bedroom closet (again)

My day...
AM
showered, weighed (218.4#), straightened bathroom, worked on blog.
closet straighten, 2 items put up on my.freecycle.org, bedroom picked up & vacuumed, got daughter off to school, put away some bab clothes, dressed kids
breakfast(sorta), tv time, move junk from upstairs to downstairs, feed dog
cleaned bathroom, picked up living room

PM
lunch, nap, tv, laundry put away, freshened up my look(finally got outt my PJs)

My food:
800am mac n cheese 1.5 cups
1130am salad with chicken & dressing
1215pm fat free pudding
330pm 4 cookies
715pm footlong ham sub
930pm cookie dough ice cream

5.04.2009

What I'm Doing Wrong

I have been reading lotsa blogs of people who have lost significant amounts weight. I decided to be real with myself and face up to what i'm doing wrong. It's like Dr. Phil says..."You can't change what you don't acknowledge."

  • i don't count my calories
  • i don't log my food
  • i watch too much tv when i could be up and moving
  • i keep 2 many snacks in the house
  • i need to eat cleaner
I am going to get a handle on this. I am tired o everydat being my do-over. I deserve better for myself.

Crappy Gift - Nothing vs something


Ok let me begin by saying that I know this is off topic, but I was dying to get this off my chest. I know this is something that lotsa people can relate to.


Ever gotten a thoughtless, crappy gift? I mean one that wasn't your style, your size, or even something you can even really use? I have on several occasions. I somewhat expect them from my kids because they are young and their taste is usually to buy me something that they would like. But lately these crappy gifts seem to come from my mom. Ok you can stop laughing already. This year I got what i consider two crap gifts. The first was one of the most thoughtless annd useess of the two. What you ask... It is this stupid desk calendar. Why it is stupid you ask?
1-I am like Ms. Tech Gadget Gal. I hate using paper. I keep all my appoints and stuff like that in my phone, my smartphone matter of fact. I have been like that for years. 2- It overtly implies that I need some tips & tricks to run my house better. Ok maybe I could improve in the housework department but thats not the point. 3-It is thoughtless overall because it is so generic. It could come from anyone and be given to any wwoman with kids. That is why this gift is crap. Because it was sale on some shelf and required no thought to give. 4- And i have to keep up with this POS all year cause she's gonna look for it when she comes to visit. Lucking effing me.
I would rather get no gift than one which you cared so little in choosing for me. When holidays roll around I ask my mom what she wants and i get t for her. This year it was Chanel no.5 cologne. Niuce, huh...? And i got this crappy calendar. What are your thoughts? Be honest. Then i can share more abuout some other crappy gifts I have received. LOL.

5.03.2009

Feeling and looking like crap

Its ironic I struggle to manage the food that I eat and here I sit with a swollen face and throat unable to eat anything other than soup, ice cream, scrambled eggs... Yummy. The pain is making it hard to sleep so here I sit...watching a TIVo'd episode of As the World Turns, drinking chicken noodle soup, and adoring my daughter as she plays with her feet. My hubby and sons are sleeping like babies. I need to workout, but I know that I can't. I just wanted to vent. I will write more later.

5.01.2009

weigh in & wisdom teeth

217.2# down 1.6#

I had my wisdom teeth removed on Friday. All 4 of them. So i was supposed to take pictures but i wanna wait until my face swelling goes down. I mean its bad enough my weight isn't where I want it. The last thing I want is a pic lookin all crazy. And yes I look crazy. But its done & that I am thankful for. I havent exercised and my eating has been so so. I have eaten way too much ice cream. I am on pain meds so I stay a little bit sleepy. I will write more later. I wanna read everyone elses blog.

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