Wacky Weigh in

210.4...this was Monday
The best rode to hell is the slow and gradual one. That is how I have been feeling. Like I have been testing the limits and I know the outcome. I get mad at myself but still do it. I am sure some of it is stress from my job hunt... but most of it is just eating 4 eatings sake.



Going back...

That is what I feel like the last few days have been like. It is a dreadful existence. Dreadful in that I am not living my fullest life. For some reason I keep failing myself. I know what I need to do but keep doing other wise. It sucks. Then I try to play catch up.

I have no excuses. I am the summation of my choices and I acknowledge it.


...are only as good as the actions that follow.

I ate like I was trying to gain weight. Like I was challenging my body to see what it would do when I ate out for all 3 meals. Not a good idea that for sure. The scale is up 1.6#. I know i didnt eat an extra 5000 plus calories,but still. I do not know why I do this to myself. I finally get under 210 and within the eyeshot of ONE-derland and i start screwing up. I feel like I cna't control myself, because I can't.

It sucks!


Smart start

I am up & dressed. Yay me. Scale reads 208.6# ( so-so).

Plan for the day includes:
  • registering girls for camp
  • working out
  • laundry
  • cleaning up desk/office corner
  • bank
  • budget
  • nails & eyebrows done
  • target

Let's see how I do.

here are some pics from my day.



..is about choices.

Whether it be food...relationships..or just what to do with your time. Life is the summation of your choices. God ...bad..or indifferent.

When I wake up in the a.m. i chose what to wear, what to eat, and what actvities my day will consist of. Seems simple enough. But if you add enough of those 'bad' choices up you can find yourself in a place where you do want to be.

This rings true for me in a few arenas. My weight being the one that has me the most frustrated. I mean yes I did have 2 babies only 15 months parts with 2 c-sections. But I was not small when I got pregnant. I was close to 190 them so when I got pregnant I gave myself freedom to eat as I please and freedom from working out.

Actually I had given myself freedom from that long before I got pregnant. So I recognize that I have to make better choices for myself, but I can do it one day & not the next. The challenge is to make those choices daily.

That is what separates the winners from the losers.. in my opinion.

how do I make choosing better for myself the norm? that is the question I pose to myself.. Im going to find the answer. When I do I will let you know.


i hate cleaning & it shows... part 1

OK... so i have let my bedroom go. I am determined to pick it up to the best of my ability. How bad it is....? Well look for yourself... Mind you this is just 1/2 my bedroom... I will take the after pictures before i start on the other side. I am only able to get anything really done because my kids are playing with their little brother & lil sister.

Ok..So now 1/2 mybedroom loks decent. check it out.

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hey there...

how are you doin? did u workout this week? hows your eating?

oh me...i am doing ok. just busy with life. life for me right now consists of 1st job hunting, then everything else. in the last 2 months i have only gotten 2 interviews. i am not losing hope just trying 2 b more diligent & creative in my follow up. i tell you i will never take having a job for granted. i just thought i'd mail out a few resumes, get a few interviews, and in no time have job offers thrown at me. so many i'd be turning them down. boy was i mistaken.

anywho... i'll write more when i have another hand free.

Challenge & Accountability

I have been slacking lately. I need some weight loss friends who can work with me and help me while I try to help them. I was doing well when i was 'training' for the 5k. But the 5k is done and I have been feeling blah.

My family is so so in the helpful department. I wanna be competitive. Maybe I am looking for excuses as to why I haven't been doing what I know I should.

I hate how I can be my own worst enemy.

So what is the plan????

I stop effing around with myself and make the rest of this month work for me.

  • Daily Wii Fit in the a.m.
  • Cardio at the gym minimum 30 minutes everyday
  • Drink over 100 oz of water.
  • Take my vitamins daily.
  • Weigh every a.m.
Yes I know food isn't on there. I wanna be successful before I add the stuff stuff. So what I am looking for is a few good, daily blog checkers. A person or better yet people to keep me honest and check my daily blog and my google spreadsheet.

Are you game...? If so email me at stormyvawn yahoo com.



Getting back in the groove...

So here is my to do list:

  • Wii fit - 20 minutes
  • 100 oz water
  • Gym 35 minutes- Elliptical
  • Vitamins
  • Weight-209.4 up 0.6#. Not bad considering I weighed 2 hours earlier and my TOM is still here.
  • Finish laundry-ongoing
  • Call DOE about student loan
  • Check on status of short sale
  • Call back on job prospects
  • Apple for more jobs
Waking up early sucked. My head hurt & I was still tired. It did feel good taking a shower and all.



I have been in a slump lately. I am taking the steps necessary to get out of it. All i think about is eating and the last thing I feel like doing is working out. It is TOM for the 1st time in like 3 months. Maybe that has something to do with it.

On a brighter note...
Here is what I got done/did today that I didnt put off
  • kids laundry
  • babies room
  • picked up my bedroom
  • started laundry
Anywho... I am dragging my butt to the gym. I will check in later.


Goal Jeans... beware

I got these really cute size 14 jeans on sale at Walmart. I thought to myself. Size 18s are loose sorta on me. So what the heck. . . . I might as well get them and make them my "Goal jeans". Ok... here is what the jeans look like hanging up.
So my weight is the lowest its been since I started this journey. I have been feeling real good about my progress. SO i figure I will try them on. AND take pics so we can see how far I have to go and how far I have come. Be warned this is not pretty. If you have recently eaten ... do not look any further...

goal jeans

OK OK... You can stop laughing at any time. I will fit in these jeans before I turn 38. That is in Nov 2009. I think that is a reasonable goal. Maybe each month I should try these on again.

What do you think...?



Being a stay at home mom is challenging. Not physically demanding, but mentally & emotionally straining and draining. The routine if it can be freeing or sometimes fell like a trap. Like today... I do not feel like cooking. I am an okay cook. Trust me no one in my house is starving. They are all well fed. There are just too many people to feed. I have 4 kids plus 2 step kids in the house. plus me and hubby. So 6 ppl to feed. Its like being a chef. Ugh.

Plus the older kids do not appreciate anything so it like doing for ungrateful people. yes I am in a funk. I will work thru this.

I still need 2 figure out what to whip up for dinner. I hope it doesn't suck too much. Oh well....

BTW- yes I am looking forward to summer being over & school starting up.

I'm back...just barely

208.8# that's right. I am down 2 lbs. It is a fluke but i'll take it. I have barely worked out and ate like crap, but hey. I am only 9 lbs from "one"derland. I am excited to say the least. Things have been hectic around my house. My mom came for a short stay. Yay for me. It was only like 2.5 days. It was the perfect length. Anything longer than that and its like WWII.

I am still looking for a job. I haven't heard back from the other interview yet. No news is good news in my opinion. I am still checking back on jobs I have applied for in an attempt to get more interviews. I will feel much more at ease when I sew up this job search situation. It is kinda an ego bruiser not having a job yet. I know the market is tough, but still.

Anyway... I am slowly getting back into the swing of working out. It a lil rough but I know working out needs to be a regular part of my day 2 day stuff.

This week I worked out:
Today for 25 minutes on the treadmill
Yesterday 55 minutes-30 minutes on weights & 25 minutes on the recumbent bike

I plan to keep this up. Oh well...that is where I am now. I will write more later. I have stuff to get done around the house.


Check it out...

This came in the mail today. Yay me!

I won this pic. I was the biggest Lisa Lisa when I was a teenager.


Object in motion...

remains in motion. I am trying to stay moving and get stuff done. My mom is visting for the weekend. My house is messier than I want. So far I have cleaned my babies room, the living room, and the dining room. My next step is my bedroom. Never a dull moment.

I didn't make it to the gym yet. I got sidetracked job hunting and working on my resume. I thought resume was good but my friend, who is an principal, feels it is too plain and doesn't really paint a good picture of what I have and can do. UGH.. so I am going to revise it again.

Here is what I wanna get done
  • Clean babyroom
  • Clean living room
  • Clean bedroom
  • Wash & Dry laundry
  • Put away clean clothes
  • cook dinner
  • Apply for more jobs
  • Check back on job applied for
  • workout

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