Eyes on the Prize....

Today was a really good day for the most part. I went to work and got my room in order. In addition, I was able to help a colleague get her room done also. I also got some great news about my daughters high school. I cooked a delicious meal of baked chicken, rice, and corn. I am under my calories. And I did 20 minutes of Zumba on the Intermediate level. Day 3 of my 2nd attempt at a 21 day streak.

The only bump in my day is my dear daughter slight attitude, but such is life. I know my expectations of modesty and honesty are not unreasonable. I want the best for her and I will not settle for less. I have been down the road with a "Know It All Teenager" before so this is old hat. She will come around.

Oh well... gonna read some blogs.. watch NBA finals... and count my blessings..


Aqua Fit CLass

My daughter and I went to an Aqua Fit class at LA Fitness. It seemed appropriate as we did a serious 1st work out the day before. The description of Aqua Fit reads..."Get fit with this challenging water workout! 50 minutes of fun will improve strength and cardiovascular endurance without the impact on your joints."

Well the class had about a dozen or so people. All but 1 were female. I would say the average age was well over 50 if you did not count me and my daughter.

All in all I enjoyed the class. I do however realize that I need a better, simpler bathing suit. The idea of shopping for a bathing suit is less than thrilling. I mean I am 233lbs and have more giggle than I want to own up to. So my choices are not very good at Wal-Mart as a learned when I looked this afternoon.

So I think I am going to check out Ashley Stewart, Lane Bryant, and such stores. I definitely wanna get a one piece becuz it just seems more practical. Plus what am I really doing in a 2 piece at this size...?

Anyway.... I hope I find one that I do not hate.


I am not even sure where to begin this post. I have been back to reading and commenting on our people blogs. I waffle back and forth between happiness for what so many have been able to accomplish. Then I get overcome, bothered for the fact that I have yet to have my happy ending.

Yet i cant seem to be persistent in doing what it takes to lose weight. Its like a flicker instead of a complete switch going off. I am not sure why. I am going to keep soul searching until I find the key to kwwping my health a priority. Because I am worth it.


Strong 4 Life

My daughter had a chance to act in print and video for a campaign to stop childhood obesity. The 1st round of ads were very controversial. See for yourself.

These ads have been run in Macon & Columbus GA. They are
scheduled to come to our area, Atlanta, in June.

They have also used my daughter and myself in the 2nd round of ads.

These are much more positive. They also start to explain that what they really want to focus on is having all families be/get healthy.
Because my daughter participation in these ads, she has been afforded some wonderful opportunities. We have the chance to send her to a fitness camp for a week in the summer.

Even more exciting is that she got to be the Today Show to speak about her participation in their ad campaign.

Now as summer has arrived, we await word from Children's Health Care of Atlanta. They will be conducting a healthy evaluation on Maya and linked her up with services and activities to help lower her healthy risks and help her be more fit.

I am also hoping to get help too. Lord knows I need it. I want us both to be healthier.
I will share info on our progress as it occurs.


Productive weekend

I feel like most of my weekend went well. I wanted to get some household things done and I wanted to get in some meaningful activity. It feels great to get stuff done.

I started laundry on Friday and had most of it put away by Sunday afternoon. Saturday I took my girls to health rally in COlumbus. It was for Children's Healthcare of Atlanta's Strong4Life Campaign. My daughter was an actress in a few of the ads. They have taken a liking to her and they are planning on supporting our family in getting healthier.

My daughter even got to speak on stage. The really fun part was all of the games and stuff we played. Even though it was mad hot I am glad we went. As we know me and my daughter are well we are a mother and her teenage daughter. I want the best for her, but I do not know if she wants it for herself. I wish she would listen more to what I say. I also need to model better choices where food and exercise is concerned. I know that the typical teenager is selfish and self-absorbed, but I want so much more fro her. She is bright and beautiful. I want her to respect herself more and really try to be the best person she can be.

We also went to the movies on Saturday. The hubby, me, and the babies saw Gnomeo & Juliet. The teenagers saw Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Roderick Rules.

Needless to say I just wanted to stay home on Sunday, which I did for the most part. I ran a brief errand with hubby and also joined him in taking our step kids home.

Up too late..more 2 come.



My emotions can be very deceiving. They swing so much that sometimes I do not know if I am coming or going. I went to bed last night practically in tears. I felt like I couldn't do anything right. My house was a mess. I didn't work out. I just crawled into bed not even fully unaddressed and went to sleep. Then I woke up in the a.m. realized it was the last Friday of the school year and I suddenly felt great.

Crazy huh. So at work I helped move textbooks all over campus. I could have used student helpers but I decided to make this my exercise. I was sweating like crazy, but I got it done. Checkout the chocolate fountain that we had a work today. Deleish. But I learned that BBQ prok and chocolate covered marsh mellows are a yucky mix. I ended up with a tummy ache.

My oldest daughter had her 8th grade dance tonight. I am glad middle school is done. I pray high school goes better. I just want the best for her. Teenage years are so hard.. I think they are harder than they were when I was kid. But her life is definitely more stable than my upbringing. But we each have our own crosses to bear.


I want my healthy body back...

As I watch biggest loser, I am kinda sad. I want to do what they have done. I want to beat my weight and not have all this weight in me. I want to be fully successful. I don't really talk to people around me about it because so much of it is mental. I love the physocalness of it all. I really struggle with the food. I wonder why I am so empty inside. Because I know I eat to numb and/or fill a void.

I pray that this summer I can finally get this weight off.


Knowing -vs- Doing

Been thinking about that alot today. I have lost a lot of weight b4. I know its a matter of calories in versus calories out. Sounds simple enough. But for me it isn't. I have created terrible habits in the last 4 years or so.

So how do i bounce back? I do I get where I want to be? I can feel so optimistic one day & do down the next.

Oh well I am going to ride the coaster til the end. I will figure out how to balance stuff better.And make the most of my time.


Walkelp me alot.

I am enjoying the walking challenge, But heck it has only been 2 days. My oldest son came by last night so he walked with me. Our neighborhood is hilly so it was quite a workout. I feel smaller already. i know. I know. You can stop laughing now. My climb is in less than 2 weeks. I know this walking everyday is going to really help prepare me for the 32 floor climb.
I have been working on a schedule for the summer. I want 2 spend quality time with my kids. I want to feel closer to my teenager espcially. She is going to 9th grade next year. I need to get her mentally and physically where she needs to be.

Here is a pic of me and my future daughter in law.

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