Around but struggling

I am here. But just barely. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I have been feeling real down lately. Overwhelmed also. Trying to work though it. I am down but not out.


Rant... Not Weight Related

i have 4 children. My oldest is my son who is 19yrs old. His father has always been absent from his life. Well This jerk still owes back child support to the tune of around $7000 dollars. I didn't require child support fromthis man for almost a decade. WHen I finally did get this man to court, like 2-3 months later he conveniently lost his job. He has been ducking dodging child suport ever since. So I get a letter in the mail tell ing me that I have to attend court out of step in less than 2weeks.

I am so irritated.


Food Tracking 6.27.2011-07.03.2011

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S-T-S Week of June 20th, 2011

Week of June 20th
Starting Data --Weight 232.4# (no change)
Body Fat 48.6% (increased by 1.6%)

Ending data 230.4#


Nutrition-- Under calories as defined by My Fitness Pal. 64 oz or more of water.

Activity-- Gym. Swim. Walk. Weights 3 days a week. Cardio 15 minutes minimum every day. (21 day streak)

Support-- Blog, talk to, post on FB my successes, setbacks, & failures. Read & comment on the blogs of others.

Fun--some TV time, some games on FB, QT with kids at movies, park, pool, etc.

I really want to get in the 220s this week. SO I have to really push it on all fronts.

General Comments and Updates:
  • 6/20 Monday: 45mins cardio & 4 lower body strength exercises.
  • 6/21 Tuesday: 60mins cardio (45kickboxing/15upright bike)
  • 6/22 Wednesday -60min cardio (35wii/10walk/15cleaning)
  • 6/23 Thursday--45min cardio (30walk/15bike)
  • 6/24 Friday-15min cardio & upper body weight training
  • 6/25 Saturday--50min wii
  • 6/26 Sunday-30mins on bike
Food report will be posted on Sunday p.m.

6/25: I am really in a good place. It could be because my cycle is on and I am really getting the exercise incorporated into my daily life. I am making this a life style. I want to be better person inside and out.



Who suggests a buffet as a dinner option to his wife who is counting calories?

21 days done... What's next?--NEED YOUR VOTE/OPINION...


Today will be my 21st day of deliberate exercse in a row. It took me about a month to get it done. But
I am still very proud of myself for sticking to this. I am still a work in progress when it comes to incorporating exercise on a regular basis. This mind shift takes work. I know that I do it. I also know I have to stay focused. I must also be sure to tap into the wonderful support system I have. I have other bloggers, my family, and my friends to keep me honest.

It is always been easy for me to quit on myself but not to quit on others. I do not want to have other people look and me and be disappointed.

I have learned somethings during this past month.

  1. My weight seems to drop when i get in over 30 minutes daily.
  2. I still have work to do when it comes to incorporating weight training.
  3. The stationary bike is my fail-safe if I don't make it to the gym, but it is definitely not the best exercise for serious calorie expenditure.
  4. I will lose weight faster if I eat out less. (duh)
  5. I need more recipes in my cooking arsenal.
  6. Forming a new habit is no joke.
So now I have to decide what challenge I want to tackle next.
The 2 challenges I am thinking about doing for my next 21 day streak are:

-----weight training (This would take as long as 49 days as I would consider it a success if I weight trained 3 days a week).

-----food tracking - I was thinking of doing this using MyFitnessPal plus taking a pic of everything I eat.

So I am asking my blog readers and friends to weigh in on which challenge I should take on next. The one with the most votes wins.

I will take suggestions up until Sunday, June
26th ... I would like to start my next 21 day adventure on Monday.

Thanks for your support.

Schedule or No Schedule...

That is the question. I have been going back and forth about whether not I should have a set schedule for the type of workout that I do. Or do I play it by ear..

Each setup has pros and cons.

  • No schedule. Less rigid. More freedom or choice. Allows for more variety.
  • Set schedule. More consistent. Easier to track improvements. Less variety.

Up until now I have been kinda playing it by ear. It works so-so. I think that is why I am l contemplating having a set schedule. When I lost weight before and lost a sig
nificant amont of weight I did so by having a set-schedule and routine for my workouts.

So here is the plan I came up with:

I like this one because it has variety and I could track how I progress if I do the same type of workout on the equipment. PLus the Wednesday Body works puts me in a class and demands me to get outta my comfort zone.

So I guess I will try this for the next few weeks. This schedule does not mean that I can't do extra exercises in addition to my scheduled workout.


Playing on the WiiFit

Wii age: 21

Obstacle Crs: 4min 18cals 354pts 3 stars
juggle 4min 9 cal 440pts 1 star
Beach Ball 4mins 13 cal 95pts 2 stars
Table Tilt 10min 25cal 40pts 2 stars
Tilt City 2min 7cal 105pts 2 stars
SNowball 10min 14 cal 25 pts 2stars

33min 85 cal.


Goal weight

How did you chose your goal weight?

I have been thinking lately about what is a good goal weight for me. I know where I would ideally like to be. Ialso know how hard it may be to get to my magic number. I want to weigh like 150#. This what I looked like at 150# about 8.5 years ago. I thought I looked good especially for being 31.

Here is another shot of me around that time.

Part of me wants to embrace the goal weigh of 150. While part of me is afraid of it. Can i really do it....? With 2 small children... a teenager entering high school... a new doggy... a loving husbad... and a large house to keep up all while working full time (starting back in August).

My hubby says that 175 is a good number for me. That is funny since when we meet I was around 195#. Here is a pic of my in the 190's after our son was born.

So even in the 190's I was looking quite cute..even in white pants if I may say so myself. So as I continue on this journey I continue to struggle with what my weight goal is.

I guess only time will tell what I do and where I will end up.

Random thoughts from the treadmill

My mind is not into it today. I didn't get enough sleep and the sleep I did get was crappy. But I am here at the gym & for that I am so grateful. I am stressing about bills/money but I also know that is pointless. I think it is almost that time of the month. I have PMDD... like PMS but moodier. I just had my 1st month on the nuvaring and that helped. I am going to try it for this month coming up as well.

Anyway.. from where I am walking I can see pretty much 80% of gym floor. I make judgments, analysis. Etc. I love seeing older ppl working out. I wish my grand mom had took her health seriously. My mom is small but doesn't take care of herself either. She doesn't exercise and quit drinking and smoking only because she got locked up. My dad is overweight & outta shape also. So I have no person

al role models for being healthy. Oh well... I will not allow that to be my excuse for continuing to be overweight & unhealthy. I deserve better for myself. My family deserves better. My children will see that eating right and
be physically active is important. They will see it through me.

I actually started this post to ramble/complain about my disfunctional relationship with... food. All I have been thinkng about is Wendys. How much do I need to workout to afford myself a burger & fries. I feel so damn foolish. Yes their food is yummy. Yes it isn't the healthiest. But their is a certain numbin that comes from indulging in the hi fat.. processed food. I have to get to the bottom of that as well.

I feel so undone & broken sometimes. Like I have so much of me to fixed. But how much is really needing to be fixed & how much is my personal demons... Only God knows. With that being said I will end this post and get back to walking on this treadmill.


21st workout

Since I decided to not got to gym. Here is what I did on my wii fit plus today

Hula Hoop 2min 13cal 305 spins 4 stars
Basic Step 3min 17cal 257 pts 3stars
Super H.H. 4min 29cal 820spins 4stars (unlocked 6 min)
Adv. Step 5min 31cal 512pts 2 stars
Rhy Bxg 4min 29 cal 337pts 3 stars

Rhy Par 4min 24 cal 1291pts 3 stars
Isl Cyc 13min 59cal 3.765mi 3 stars

35minutes completed at 4pm
200 calories


21 days wanna join me?-Mission Accomplished then some

5/20/2011(original post)
I have been reading blogs. I want to be successful but what I am lacking is finish. I am a strong starter and then I slowly quit. Disappointing myself is common place. I do not want to be a starter who never finishes. I want to be a starter who loses til she finishes.

Successful people look past problems and find solutions. So I have the new diet pill. I need to get moving again. They say 21 days is all it takes to make a habit. So, there is no time like the present. I am going to post on FB and see if I can get some other people to join me in the next 21days to turn my fitness around.

Are you in...?
my goal
deliberate exercise
15 minutes
for the next 21 days STRAIGHT

Fri 05/20 30 minutes moving books (serious workout) (1)
Sat 05/21 60 minutes outdoor games with kids (2)
Sun 05/22 20 minutes Zumba on the Wii (3)
Mon 05/23 15 minutes on the bike (4)
Tue 05/24 20 minutes Zumba on the Wii (5)
Wed 05/25 15 minutes on the bike (6)
Thu 05/26 #fail I fell asleep on the floor in the babies room
Fri 05/27 #fail no excuse
Sat 05/28 #fail absolutely no excuse
Sun 05/29 30 minutes cardio & lower body exercises (1)
Mon 05/30 45 minutes water aerobics (2)
Tue 05/31 20 minutes Zumba on the Wii (intermediate level) (3)
Wed 06/01 #fail (went to church)
Thu 06/02 20 Minutes bike and rowing plus upper body weight training (1)
Fri 06/03 15 minutes walking (2)
Sat 06/04 120 minutes rafting (3)
Sun 06/05 15 minutes cleaning out car (4)
Mon 06/06 30 minutes (10 bike/20 treadmill) plus 4 leg exercises (5)
Tue 06/07 65 minutes (15bike/30 elliptical/20 wii fit) (6)
Wed 06/08 75 Minutes (15bike/60 water aerobics) (7)
Thur 06/09 60 minutes (50 treadmill/ 10 bike)---Day 8 in a row!
Fri 06/10 30 minutes (10water aerobics/20swimming) --Day 9
Sat 06/11 55minutes (walk/jogging) --Day 10
Sun 06/12 15minutes (bike) -Day 11
Mon 06/13 15 minutes (misc. aerobics)- Day 12
Tue 06/14 2o minutes (Zumba) - Day 13
Wed 06/15
2o minutes (Zumba) - Day 14
Thur 06/16 2o minutes (Zumba...expert level) - Day 15
Fri 06/17 30 minutes (Zumba...intermed. level) - Day 16
Sat 06/18 15 minutes (Zumba...intermed. level) - Day 17

Sun 06/19 15 minutes walking dog

Mon 06/20 45 minutes (10 bike/35 Elliptical...plus weight training) - Day 19
Tue 06/21 60 minutes (45min kickboxing/15 min bike) - Day 20
Wed 06/22 60 mins(35wii/15 cleaning/10walking)--Day 21
Thu 6/23 45 mins (30min treadmill/ 15 min upright bike)---Day 22
Fri 6/24 15 minutes on elliptical plus weight training) ----Day 23

I am also joining the SLIMMER THIS SUMMER Challenge. Hope you can join me.. It starts June 6th.
06/04/2011 I knew this would be difficult. I did not realize how difficult it would be. This has made me realize how life gets in the way. I need to keep balance and order. I have 2 make my health a priority. I deserve it. My family deserves it.
06/08/2011 Aww yea... 7 days straight. I am working it. I know this will pay off if I can also get my eating in order.
6/14/2011-- I am so excited that I have made it 13 days. It feels great to make progress.


20 June Thoughts

I let the past week really hold me back. I am thankful for not gaining weight, but I cannot and will not let this become a habit. I did workout everyday but my food was not good at all. I ate out too often and too much.

Today is a new day.

I made it to the gym in the a.m. and did both cardio and strength training.
  • 10 mins on recumbent bike--50 cals
  • 4 leg strength training exercises
  • 35 mins on the Elliptical--400 cals

yes... gross but shows that I was workin it out.

Now I just need to keep me calories in check and today will be a success.

at least 8 glasses... i lost count.

Breakfast:310cal Captain Crunch Cereal with Lowfat Milk
Lunch: 510cal Brown Rice and 2 shake n' bake chicken strips
Dinner:370cal 1.5 cups spaghetti with 1 cup wheat pasta
Snack: 370 cal--4 cookies with milk

Total cals 1550
Daily goal 1775
Remaining 225

Slimmer This Summer

12 weeks to rock my summer.
Weight Loss Goal 20lbs

My plan:
  • Nutrition- Drink at least 8 glasses of water daily. Stay under 1400 calories as tracked by My Fitness Pal.
  • Activity-- Be active every day for a minimum of 150 minutes weekly. I plan on going to the gym 5 days a week. I want to meet with a trainer at least once a week. I will bringing my teenage daughter with me, plus my toddlers will get to play in the kids area.
  • Support-- I will blog here, post on SP & FB. I am also going to use a trainer. I will also support my fellow Summer Slimmers.
  • Fun-- Do stuff I like. Zumba. Walking. Just Dance 2. Play with the kids. Hula hoop.

Weigh ins & Weekly Progress-Click link to see what I am up to.
Jun 6: 235# 48% body fat
Jun 13: 232.4# 47%body fat (2.6# total loss 17.4# remaining to lose in the challenge)
Jun 20: 232.4# 48.5%body fat
Jun 27 230.4# 48.2%body fat 1 day of exercise for 30mins.
Jul 4 229.8# 47.6%body fat only 2 days and 70 mins of exercise
Jul 11 227.6# 48.8%body fat 4hrs 30 mins exercise 5 of 7 days exercise
Jul 18 228.8 # 47.7%body fat 4hr 40 min of exercise 7 days in a row
Jul 25 228# 47.6%body fat
Aug 1
Aug 8
Aug 15
Aug 22
Aug 29


S-T-S Week of June 13th, 2011

Week of June 13th
Starting Data --Weight 232.4#
Body Fat 47%

Ending weight: 232.4# ---> boo!

Nutrition-- Under calories as defined by My Fitness Pal. 64 oz or more of water.
Activity-- Gym. Swim. Walk. Weights 3 days a week. Cardio 15 minutes minimum every day. (21 day streak)
Support-- Blog, talk to, post on FB my successes, setbacks, & failures. Read & comment on the blogs of others.
Fun--some TV time, some games on FB, QT with kids at movies, park, pool, etc.

General Comments and Updates:
My dad is visiting this week arriving Monday a.m. and departing Friday a.m. So I may not be able to get in the serious workouts that I was able to this past week. I guess that means that I will have to be more diligent and deliberate in my food choices.
  • Monday-15 mins. aerobics-Over on food. Water so-so.
  • Tuesday-20 mins. Zumba-Over on food. Water good.
  • Wednesday-20 mins. Zumba-Over on food. Water good. I hate how I look for any excuse to eat poorly...eat out..etc. I do not know why I sabotage myself like that. I really need to do some soul seraching and get to the bottom of my problem.
  • Thursday--20 mins. Zumba-Ok on food. Water so-so. Sad for my dad to leave, but glad 2 get back 2 'normal'. I almost messed up my exercise streak. But i did Zumba at 1135 at night. Felt great to not fail myself when I have made such progress on building the exercise habit.
  • Friday--30 mins. Zumba. Food bad. Water great.
  • Saturday--15 mins. Zumba. DDid an early weigh and i see a no change weigh in ahead of me. I won't quit even if I am imperfect in my methods. This 21 dat exercise strength has really helped my fitness resolve. I am contemplating a 21 day calorie/food challenge for myself.
  • Sunday--15 minutes walking dog.

06/17- Check out my late night/early morning Zumba.


S-T-S Week of June 6th, 2011

Week of June 6th
Starting Data --Weight 234.6#
Body Fat 48%

Nutrition-- Under calories as defined by My Fitness Pal. 64 oz or more of water.
Activity-- Gym. Swim. Walk. Weights 3 days a week. Cardio 15 minutes minimum every day. (21 day streak)
Support-- Blog, talk to, post on FB my successes, setbacks, & failures. Read & comment on the blogs of others.
Fun--some TV time, some games on FB, QT with kids at movies, park, pool, etc.

General Comments and Updates:
  • Monday- Good day. Worked out. I even ran into a few friends at the gym. Ran a few errands. Got to take kids to friends pool. Cooked and ate all meals at home.
  • Tuesday--Aw yea, 65 minutes of exercise. Food could have been better. Water on point.
  • Wednesday-- 75minutes of exercise. Food was ok according to MFP. Feel like I am on track. Very tempted to weigh myself 2morrow just to see. A lil scared also.
  • Thursday--60minutes of cardio. Food within myfitnesspal guidelines. Gotta curb my sweets becuz I think I am missing out on some nutrients.
  • Friday-- 30minutes of cardio
  • Saturday--55 minutes of cardio via walking a 5k.
  • Sunday--15minutes on upright bike


5k Plan

I want to walk one 5k a month. I want to do for the health benefits and for the given charity.

11th June - Atlanta Children's Shelter --Done 55:25
16th July - Pink Ribbon Walk
20th August - Free to Breath
24th September - Picture of Health Foundation's Fight Against
1st October - Battle of the Burgers
16th October - AIDS Walk


June 11, 2011---- Hot but fun cause I walked with friends. Sure look forward to this weight coming off and getting healthier and faster.

Atlanta Children's Shelter 5k...

I completed my 3rd 5k today. I walked most of it. It took me 55minutes. I wish I was faster but it is better than nothing. I had a great time with my friends and family and it was for a good cause.

This is me all smiles before the race.

This is me and Kristi at the end of the 1st lap. Not too tired (yet).

This was the last few feet before the finish line. I wanted to finish strong.

My youngest son wanted to run with his mommy. How sweet....
This was me recovering after the race.

I am glad I did it and I plan on doing 1 a month. Lord willing I will get faster as I walk more and as the weight comes off.


Laziness Hinders Success

This title came to me as I was warming up on the bike at the gym. I need to be less lazy in so many areas of my life. It is a matter of a few issues that I let get in my way.

Planning-- Exercise and proper nutrition need to be priority.

Family--Sometimes I just wanna veg out with them and not do anything. Hubby is also a huge fan of eating out. I need to be more diligent in eating wel when we go out.


We went to White Water

I woke up Friday and decided to take the kids to White Water. I found a deal where I could pay for season passes in 3 payments so I went for it. The kids have been talking about the water park ever since we went. I am so thankful that my 14 y.o. daughter going with me. It would be nearly impossible to do this trip without a 2nd person.

Me and my namesake enjoying the lazy river.

My 3 youngest in the wave pool.

My babies on the pirate ship. My older one shooting water. While my namesake get ready to slide down the slide.

Definitely my fav pic. Great light. Great smiles.

To say the least a great time was had by all.

This is just the beginning of a the greatest summer ever.......
(here's hoping)

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