7.5 months post update

I am so glad that I have stopped to write an update blog. I have been super busy. That is always slowly changing. I graduate with my specialist degree next week. So I am done with school. WInter break is two weeks away and that is also super awesome. I am down around 70 lbs from my highest weight and I am still deciding on what my goal weight should be.

I have cut and colored my hair and i love the style that it is in. SO all in all I am blessed to be in great place. Of course... there are still many areas of my life that need improvement but I think that is normal.



I'm sitting here at the park watching my 2 youngest play. It's a beautiful fall day. The park is wonderfully quiet especially compared to how jam packed it is here most days. I had different plans but things changed and I am just taking it for what it is. 

There is so much to be said for speaking your mind and your truth. People do not always want to hear you. You cannot let that stop you from saying what needs to be said or doing what needs to be done. You have to be your own advocate.... Your own supporter.... Even your own hero.  It's not popular or easy to say the least. You owe it to yourself. That's the bottom line. 

I think people who don't really know me would be shocked to find out that I am very..need I say uktra-sensitive. I wish I wasn't. I wish I was tougher and not so easily hurt by the actions or words. 

I can only be me & I wish that I felt like that was enough. Or at least I wish I cared a lot less about the opinions of others. 


Old Habits

I am 5 months post op VSG. My weight has gone down slowly but surely. I have not been on track as well as I should. I have gotten lazy and I am very frustrated with myself. Unfortunately, my feelings of frustration seems to only come after the fact. I have so much on my plate and balance has been hard to come by.

I am sure I can get my focus back. I think I need a better plan. I start my week strong but seem to end the week....weak. I love my husband and my family.... but I feel like I allow then to hold me back. It sucks having to put my foot down and do what I have to do in terms of food, time, grad school work, eating right...

I am most disappointed in myself for breaking promises to myself. I say I will do something and them I do not keep that self promise. How do I change that....? That is the question that I am working on my head.

Getting my focus and passion back for my improved health and better life is my mission this week.


6 weeks post op

I know... I know...  I should update more often. BUt its been super hectic. I went back to work with 2 weeks left in the school year. Talk about a rough 2 weeks. BUt I survived but not without being exhausted and even feeling abit defeated.
 Heck. It's taken me over 2wks to even post this.
I started with my highest weight around 255.
By surgery day I was 242.
Today June 27th I am 218#s. 

I have gotten more serious about my workouts and that helps.  I have even enlisted the help of my 2 oldest kids. 
 And I even get my hubby to hit the gym with me. 
So the surgery was a success.  I am eating less and working out more. The 2 hardest parts are getting in enough water and remembering to take my vitamins. So that's all for now. 


Loser's Bench

Last night before surgery. I have been 2 days in just clear liquids. I was hoping to get more done around the house, but oh well. So in case you are wondering what surgery... I am having the gastric sleeve. I am nervous, excited, and ready. I want to be a healthy size again.


Mid month blahs

I am in a funk. I have been for while. Iget frustrated easily and I do not feel like being bothered. It is a combo of work, personal, and grad school. I know I will get thru this It just sucks in the mean time. I cant change the people in my life, but I would love it if they did not get on my nerves as much.
Maybe this is more of a testament to my make lack of growth spiritually. Like if I was walking more closely with the Lord then maybe it would take more to upset me. Oh well.... such is life.


February 13 in 13 Update...

well... well... lets see where have I been? Where am i?

That is an interesting question. And I am going to answer it. And yes it has taken me to the middle of the month to stop and check in. That speaks volumes and shows how life has been.

Ongoing Goals 
  • Vertical Gastric Sleeve Surgery- Just one more weigh in togo and my paper work gets submitted in March. I passed the EKGand the Pysch eval
  • Educational Specialist Degree Completion-Back in school taking 2 classes. Graduation is slatted for Dec. 2013.

  • become a "CrossFit" chick-- not starting this yet, but still wanna do this
  • increase physical activity and track it--started this and want to keep it. I use my fitnit to track my steps
  • plan meals weekly- working on this. Not happening. I need to work on this maybe when life isnt so hectic
  • VGS prep (5 parts)-- making progress this month is no soda, next month i reduce/eliminate caffeine


  • dejunk my house- This a getting done and feels great. 
  • create and follow household chore schedule--I do not like this goal...i still need to find a way to make 

  • actively pursue career advancement-- this is ongoing. PLans for this month
    • updating resume
    • take on additional responsibilities
    • continue to look for a new/better job

  • blog minimum 2 days a week--still struggling with this
  • QT with hubby increase frequency
  • strengthen spiritual life--life has gotten in the way. The kdis have been sick, hubby swamped at work. Hoping the 2nd half of the month this gets better.


Re-Evaluating My Goals...

Being back at work and the pending grad school classes I am realizing I need to adjust my timeline on some goals as well as adjust my intensity on others.

Here are my goals for my 13 in 2013... I will comment on if I am keeping, modifying, or changing my focus/goals.

Ongoing Goals
  • Vertical Gastric Sleeve Surgery- I have 2 more weigh ins, an EKG, and psych eval ... then my paperwork gets
  • Educational Specialist Degree Completion-Classes start back Jan. 26th. Graduation is slatted for Dec. 2013.

  • become a "CrossFit" chick-- not starting this yet, but still wanna do this
  • increase physical activity and track it--started this and want to keep it.
  • plan meals weekly- working on this.
  • VGS prep (5 parts)-- This month I am working on drinking more water and crystal light.


  • dejunk my house- This a getting done and feels great.
  • create and follow household chore schedule--I do not like this goal

  • actively pursue career advancement-- this is ongoing. I have and will continue to check various district websites. I am also looking to revamp my resume and maybe use a head hunter to help me find a better job.

  • blog minimum 4 days a week--going to reduce this to 2 times a week.
  • QT with hubby increase frequency
  • strengthen spiritual life


8 days outta 365 in 2013

Super Mom Super Wife Super Tired Coffee Mug8 days in and back at work. So tired.... Need to get more sleep. I just wanna do a drive by by post....
So here is my update...

Physical Activity increase-I haven't been very active in a few days. My return to work has been interesting. I came home from work on Monday and ended up vomiting and feeling like i was c0ming down with the flu.

Plans Meals-This is going decent. We have eat out a few days but while back on the work grind we are eating at home.

VSG Prep-I am doing better with the water/fluid part.I am also weaning myself off of sweet tea. I am starting by mixing and I am sure that it will get better.

Dejunk house-Haven't done anything towards this today or yesterday. Too tired, but shooting for a weekend recovery. We threw out 7bags of garbage out of the playroom/bonus room and we are no where near done.

Chores-I could do better but I do try to do a little something every day.

Blog-This is a important, but will have to wait till the weekend for me to do long posts or respond to the blogs that  I follow.

QT with hubby- :-) 

Spirituality-Made it to church and it felt great.  Hubby and I are talking about joining a small group bible study. The big question is how do we fit it n our schedule when we are so swamped and tired already.


3 days in to 2013

3 days into 2013 and I am feeling pretty great about where I am in reference to where I wanna be.
I am not attempting to conquer all of my goals at once. I am focusing on a few specfic ones and I will build from there.

I feel like I am trying to improve overall, but not sure if my goals are strong or solid enough. I do however, feel like they need to tracked and I can stand to improve in the areas I chose.

Physical Activity increase-I haven't been very active in several months. I am getting back into the swing of doing physical type things. I am back to wearing my FitBit and I am going to incorporate gym workouts, wii dancing, etc. to get my body moving. I can tell I have let myself go in this areas because even doing just dance wears me out. So this month is kinda a basic and I will see how it goes.

Plans Meals-This is going well. 3 out of 3 days I have eaten the meals from the plan and at home for every meal. I know it doesnt sound like much, but for me  9 out of 9 meals eaten at home according to plan is major. Hubby and I eat out too much and this is an attempt to control/curtail this.

VSG Prep-I do not have a definite surgery date but I am pretty confident that it will take place no later than June. I wish I could have in April but I am not sure if all of the clearances will have gone through. I would like to go back to work as opposed to just being stuck sitting around the house. I am Regardless... I am working throw preparations food and physicality wise.   So for this month the main focus is get back to drinking 64 oz of water, crystal light type stuff. Plus restarting my physical/exercise routine.

Dejunk house-This taske seems almost impossible. I know it isn't but ugh... such a major pain to do. I have been conquering parts of my house over this break and I feel like I am making progress. I have a ways to go, but I will not quit until my house only has what it needs in it. There is no bonus to holding on to stuff that I do not want, need, or use.

Chores-This is a work in progress. I haven't made chart. But I am working at being more proactive. All of the work on fixing up the house is making me inspired to keep it looking nice. Now the trick is getting the older kids to buy in and give crap about how the house looks.

Blog-This is a no-brainer. Feels great to take time and think through where I am, where I am headed, and having support getting there.

QT with hubby- :-) that's all i will say about that.

Spirituality-The plan hear is start with attending church consistently. Next I want to get back to daily devotional reading and build on my prayer life with my family.

So... I also plan to make a 13 in 13 overall page aso I can link up not just the months but also each goal. 

How has 2013 started off for you....?


13 in 13 Intro

Ok.... I know.... I know.... New years resolutions are not usually a good idea, but hey you can't win if you don't play right. I know I did better health wise when I had the support, accountability, and encouragement from my bloggie friends.

That is why I have decided to participate to WeightWars 13 in 13 Yearlong Challenge... Thats right I said it. A yearlong challenge. I know its sounds crazy but heck, I am a bit crazy so why not give it a try, right.

What do you want to achieve? If you could wake up tomorrow and have everything the way you wanted it to be what would it look like? 

What I want most in my life is balance and self confidence in all areas of my life. I have this nagging feeling that I am always falling short and not doing everything to the best of my ability.
In my dream world here are the things that would exist:
  • I'd be at a healthy weight.
  • My house would be junk free and running efficiently.
  • I'd have my specialist degree and a job as a school administrator.
  • I'd feel more connected to my savior.
  • I'd have an outlet that made me feel alive and encouraging to others.
  • My relationships with the vital people in my life would be vibrant and fulfilling.
  • I'd be involved in fun & interesting physical & social activities.
So I have completed my 13 in 13 version 2.0.

Ongoing Goals
  • Vertical Gastric Sleeve Surgery
  • Educational Specialist Degree Completion

  • become a "CrossFit" chick
  • increase physical activity and track it
  • plan meals weekly
  • VGS prep (5 parts)

  • dejunk my house
  • create and follow household chore schedule

  • actively pursue career advancement

  • blog minimum 4 days a week
  • QT with hubby increase frequency
  • strengthen spiritual life

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Become a "Flirty Girl" Fitness Instructor. I have seen commercials for this and I so wanna do this. I love dancing and helping people and Flirty Fitness seems like a great fit.

So that's my story and I am sticking to it. I know this is not everything I want to accomplish in my life but I would feel great if I got these achieved in the next 364 days.

Can I count on your support?
Can I count you in?

What are your thoughts...?

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