Alone

Let me confess I am on my feelings right now so the tone of this blog maybe a tad bit blah. But it gets like that sometime. I am up bright and early at a Spartan event. The event is the Spartan tv show by NBC. My husband was supposed to go with me but he needed to keep working on the cars. So here I stand at an event that I am interested in, excited about all by myself. 

It made me think about my fitness/weight loss/plastic surgery journey. I have had the love and support of several people through my life moments yet in the end I am on my own and left to get it done on my own. Part of me is sad and that fact while another part is proud of it. I have to accept my progress... My success ... My results are in my hands and my hands alone. 

I need to acknowledge my strength, my ability, & my intelligence and how I am enough  to achieve my goals. 

All on my own. 

Human Factor

I am still working through this chapter. I swear it is like eating my vegetables. It talks about the 'human factor' ad how it a can and does effect the change process. There are 2 types of human factors internal and external. I am the internal factor and the people in my life are the external.

Here is how my feedback/response to this...

Internal _all Me
-tendency to procrastinate
-desire/love of sweets
+like to meet people
+like to try new things
+easy to get along
+ability to make a workout plan



External
Hubby
Younger kids
Older daughter
Older son
Mother
JS-friend

Confession

Well I am stuck. Actually it's not about being stuck it's about facing some truths that I don't or won't or can't or choose not to deal with at the moment in terms of making real change. The chapter that I'm supposed to be reading I have briefly looked at and that's it. And that's the problem in a nutshell it is a chapter that talks about the human factor. The human factor is actually the biggest factor that I think can positively and or negatively affect the changes that I want to make in terms of improving my health. 

So far from my reading I know there are internal factors and external factors I am the internal factors and all the other humans in my life are the external factors. That in and of itself is challenging to be very honest with myself about why I do certain things or even be transparent about the things I do that hinder my ability to truly reach optimal health. 

So in an attempt to take baby steps let's at least list my stuff if I can and then I'll just list the people in my life and then I will later address their connection or their relation are there how they factored into my Health goals. 

Internal (MY) issues

-Procrastinator

-Inconsistent

-Lack of knowledge 

External - other people

Husband

Younger kids

Maya 

Skyler

Mom

Friends

Ohhhh sleepy will continue later. 

Highlight and Categorize

Highlight and categorize your (my) obstacles.

 Goal: To be fit and healthy

What stands in the way of me achieving my goals....?  I used to think it was/is things outside of my control, but in reality it is things mainly within my control and sphere of influence. That is frustrating and humbling to accept.  So here are what I came up with as my obstacles... in ABC order..

1. Activities with the kids
2. Being tired
3. Busy schedule
4. Eat unhealthy food
5. Family obligations/Leisure time
6. Inconsistent motivation
7. Long commute
8. No concrete meal plan
9. No set workout schedule/plan
10. Not knowledgeable enough in terms of proper diet and exercise programs/methodology
11. Responsibilities from work
12. Small support system

---Categorized---

Within my control
Being tired
Eat unhealthy food
Family obligations/Leisure time
Inconsistent motivation
No concrete meal plan
No set workout schedule/plan
Not knowledgeable enough in terms of proper diet and exercise programs/methodology
Small support system

I Can influence

Activities with the kids
Busy schedule
Long commute

Outside me of my control
Responsibilities from work

Ugh

I have been fighting a cold all week. Headaches. Body aches. Sore throat. The works. and I am pretty sure that it had to do with the fact that we ripped and ran all last weekend. I hope this weekend it is a lot less of it all. No major plans except for Angel cheering on Saturday then movies and a bunch of candy Saturday night. Hoping to go to church on Sunday and maybe to the gym as well. But right now I just feel exhausted. 

I feel also kind of overwhelmed and under inspired at work and I'm dealing with that. So I've had a lot of time lately or I should say I've spent a lot of time lately really thinking about what I want to do the second half of my life and I just don't have any clear-cut answers yet and that is a bit unnerving. 

I know I get a lot of joy out of helping people and I want to work in some capacity where I feel useful and helpful and appreciated for the work that I do. I really need to be proactive and open-minded see if any opportunities can come my way because that would be such a blessing.

The scale isn't moving but I haven't been eating great or working out much as I'm sick. I can't wait to feel better. 

Clean eating

Been thinking a lot lately about changing what I eat. I know I need to eat a lot healthier but it's going to take a lot of work. Looking into clean eating and hoping to start with clean breakfast meals next week. I will update and let it be known how it worked out.

On a lighter note my mud run that was a 5K on Sunday was great. Had a blast even though it was super cold. Looking forward to a 5K next Saturday night and got a break in my new sneakers before  

I'm back

I know it may seem like forever since I've put a post here. So much is going on in the past 9 to 10 months that it's even hard to quantify. I had my plastic surgery in June and it was successful. It was a very positive experience overall. And that I am very thankful for. So now I'm back to my normal self as normal as I can be and I am continuing my journey to be as fit and healthy as I Can.

So that means I have a new fire and a new desire to clean myself out make myself stronger and just overall turn myself into the best version of me that I can be. I decided that I want to focus on a few core goals as it relates to my health and fitness. 

My current exercise goals are:

five days a week of morning cardio 

Two days maybe three days a week of CrossFit 

two days of running a 5K

My nutrition goals are a bit shaky. I know that means I need to focus on that more scenario where I'm unsure. My goal for food this week is to track everything I. I eat. My second goal is to come up with a meal plan that I will actually implement. 

On a simpler note I want to take better care of my face. I know it sounds vain but I want to age gracefully. 

In an attempt to be more accountable I even bought a habit tracking app. I'm excited to see how I do. 

And oh yea  reading a self help book  titled 30 days: change Your Habits Change your Life (30D:CYH-CYL).

Breakthrough

I finally got under 180. This is an amazing 1st. I have to stay the course to not go over 180 again. I struggle with consistency and this new weight 'zone' is a test. I have to stay the course. Low carb. High protein. Lotsa water. and Physical activity everyday.

I am being for cognizant of my thoughts and my diet. I made a wall size poster to hold me accountable for 2015. I give myself a sticker if I workout for at least 30 mins or log 10,000 steps.

I know I can get to 10,000 steps a day. I am concerned about making sure that I workout at a higher intensity. That could be my downfall if I am not careful.

So that is all for now. I have worked out every day this week starting Monday. So now the trick is upping the ante and make a real workable exercise plan. I have also avoided eating out for 2 days in a row and that for me is a major feat.