2014 Review Reflect Reassess

Here is what I focused for myself for 2014.

Budget--Got some bills paid off but added others. Definitely see hubby and I saving more in 2015 just as we did in 2014. Working togther and setting goals is the key to success in this area.
Chore--This is a moving target. In the past I tried to get more systematic and rigid and that does not work well for me. I need to stay focused and be realistic for myself and my life when it comes to chores and how my house looks.
Employment--Definite area of success. I love my new work location, grade level, and co-workers. Happiest I have been in a very, very long time.
Household--see chores. LOL.
Relationships-- Another moving target. This area fluctuates and I look forward to continuing to grow in my ability to effectively, and appropriate respond to the people in my life. 
Weight Loss--12/31/2013 weight 188# Body fat: 40.7% 12/29/2014 weight 182# Body fat: 39% 76.5
See for yourself...#winning 

2015 Goals

I love the New Year...I love the feeling of starting fresh. . . . . starting anew.And since I am off of work it gives me time to plan and prepare. I am not always successful at my goals but I will continue to pursue personal growth and self improvement.

2015 has so many wonderful things on my horizon...
  • A work trip out of town
  • My 1st grandchild
  • A journey out of the country for my Mommy Makeover
  • attend to the above 3 items
  • enjoy life more and stress less
  • blog through each more event and the occasional minor event


Not enough words

Well I had the best of intentions for after work today. It was one of my rare early days when I got out of work on time. I Think that was my first mistake. Short story of it is people frustrated me and irritated me and I'm just through today. That's why I'm laying in bed and it's not even 10 PM. I recognize that I have a lot of responsibility. Will do my best to try to meet all the needs then I'm supposed to. But sometimes I just want to come home and crawl into bed before the sun even goes down. And today was one of those days. 

As I lay here with tears in my eyes I know that it's my emotions as well as my situation and circumstances that have me feeling this way. I kNow it's just the devil tried to steal my joy. I want to learn how to remain calm and even-tempered.  I'm pretty sure that would be easier if I didn't feel so stressed. Really feel like I need some time to myself. But I never really get it. But when I do it's 9 o'clock at night when I'm too exhausted to even be able to complete a thought. So what good is it time to load if I'm just exhausted stressed or sleepy. 

It's useless. That's what time alone at 9 o'clock to 10 o'clock or 11 o'clock is to me. Oh well I'm gonna put this day to bed and then tomorrow's a new day. 


First mess up not the last

I knew that we can was going to be a stumbling block. I'm disappointed that I did not prepare better. But I did learn a few things about myself.
1.  I can do it if I really want to. 
2.  I am more likely to be successful if I plan and keep crap outta my reach. 
3. In terms of my checklist... I think less is more. 
4.  Also the checklist needs to not to speak easy stuff there needs to be some real challenge there. 
5. The biggest key piece I think I'm missing is accountability or support system. My hubby gives me free reign and. Never strikes to hold me accountable. 

So I've decided to make my daily list 10 items or less
100 days read
Carbs under 100
Protein over 60
Steps over 10k
Water 64oz or more
Teeth 2x 

Feedback on my new to do list would be great. 


Protect the program

Day 6 is titled protect the program and with the weekend approaching that's very fitting. Most of my indulgences happen on the weekend because I'm more relaxed and I have greater access to the foods I love to eat. 

Even at work today it was a very tempting environment. One of my coworkers front of the cake for our whole team. I was very proud of myself for having probably what would be one 20th to 1/32 of a slice of a piece a cake.  I don't agree with the chapter when it talks about not telling people i'm the kind of person I like to be accountable and if everyone knows I'm trying to be healthier and they're less likely to try to tempt me. 

 That's why do this blog and posted on my Facebook pages so I have more accountability. But everyone is different and has to do it works for them. Speaking of which I'm very tempted to weigh myself in the morning.  It'll be nice to know that what I'm doing is working maybe just going every two days and That would help with the desire that I have to keep checking the scale. 

The book says list three challenging times. 
1-The weekends
2-if I'm up too late at night
3-if I go to work without my snacks prepared

Gotta run falling asleep. 


Magic Notebook

Well I've made it today five and I feel relatively successful. I'm tracking my food I am resisting temptation I am putting stickers on my checklist. For me it's about building routines and being accountable.  Day five and 100 days of weight-loss talked about keeping a magic notebook. I love notebooks all ooffice materials actually. I actually have a collection of notebook. However when pI thought about the term magic notebook I didn't think of my spiral notebooks I thought of my blog. And also thought about my Facebook page big butt theory.  Those are the places I feel I could be the most genuine in the most reflective. 

It was a good feeling to know I'm doing one thing right. The key is to build on the healthy habits and grow. I want to weigh in when I told myself I would only went twice a week so I'm fighting that temptation and waiting until Sunday. I don't want to let the scale be what determines my mood or how I feel and I want to keep the freedom that I've given myself. Haven't been to the physical gym as much as I would like this week I'm hoping to improve that next week. It will be nice to see even a loss of a pound and a half or 2 pounds without consistently going to the gym.  In my mind it would mean if I ripped up my cardio and weight training I could see it even better loss next week. 

Lemar and I've been talking about my surgery and the things I need to do to get ready for that summer trip. My first step is to put a deposit down on a date. I have committed to not doing that until I weigh 175. I haven't stuck in the 180s for so long that 10 pounds really matters to me.  It would also be taking me out of the obese category and put me in the overweight. That's major and I really really want to see that happen before I turn 43 in November. Now that I think about it I'll probably make a blog post that I can update with status just on the prep for the mommy makeover. 

Here's hoping that I am the week as strong as I started. 


I like the concept in day four. Day #4 talks about looking at what you eat to lose weight in terms of boundaries. Boundaries give you guidelines and not rigidity.  Think of it as staying in between the lines on the road to success. The assignment at the end was simple. Two columns one for weight loss and one for maintenance. 

Maintenance I think is the easier one to deal with first. I have been able to maintain the weight for about eight months. Next involves eating normally with the occasional snack and exercise 3 to 4 days a week. It also allows for eating out once or twice a week as long as I don't overindulge. 

Figure out the boundaries for weight-loss is what I'm tweaking out now. I've lost the bulk two thirds of the way I want to lose. I only have no more than 35 pounds to go. So I've set up some guidelines for myself. Keeping my carbs low my proteins high and making sure I get in at least 10,000 steps a day. But the most important thing to me is not mindlessly eating. I think that is how I ended up in maintenance and didn't hit my goal within the first year or so.. 

I got comfortable being a lot smaller. However I'm not so comfortable that I'm happy where I'm at. Hence the need for boundaries that I am now Enforcing. 

Oh by the way I'm down about half a pound from Sunday and I'm going to fight the urge and not weigh in again until Sunday as well. The game I play with the scale is one I don't want to play anymore.  This weight-loss battle is not fought in days it's fought in weeks and months and moments. 

Four days down 96 to go... On no wait it's actually a lifetime to go. I'm worth and I deserve and I will have a healthy lifestyle for the second half of my life. 

On a more random note I decided to include a picture of something that brought me a great deal of joy this evening. In the midst of drama and handling a bunch stuff I didn't want to do. On a quick stop to OfficeMax I found this beautiful display of what looked like 1 million pens and it made me all warm and fuzzy inside. 


Commitment---Do it anyway

As a women who has been married a few times.... I know a lot about commitment.  I stayed committed for many years even when lesser women would have given up. Day 2 of the 100 days is about the difference between being Interested versus being committed.  

I have been interested in getting to a healthy size since before weight loss surgery. But as u have. One to recognize it takes COMMITTMENT. COMMITTMENT will get me to the gym when I've had a rough day at work. Interest will keep me on the couch or tell me it's ok to have just one cupcake. 

Commitment makes moves. Interest makes excuses. I will stay committ to getting healthy. It's not just a number on a scale. It's how I feel when I move...when i look at my body, etc. 

Day 3 in the book was a continuation about doing it anyway. I really like disprove chapter as it really did give me an ah-ha moment. I should be as committed to being healthy as I am committed to my job. I go to work on many of days I don't feel like it. I do laundry on days I don't feel like it I could dinner on days I don't feel like it. 

So just do it anyway that's the whole point.  The results will come. 

On a positive note Hubby and I made to the gym today. I've also been on track for three days in a room so I know only six dollars. I'll explain my compensation plan on a later blog post when I'm not so tired. 


Day 1(again)

So I'm getting back on track. I decided to go back to the book I was reading before. It's titled 100 days of weight loss. Each day I read a few pages and it gives me an activity. Today's activity for day one is titled "I used to be that way". 

I found that to be interesting because it makes me think about the same things I keep telling myself over and over. Those wrong things I say about myself need to stop. I need a new recording to go in my head one that shows how strong and smart and capable I am. 

Step one:  List all my fears or negative behaviors that I've hurt my weight loss success
1-I sneak food
2-Eat when I'm not hungry
3-I don't exercise when I know I should
4-I don't keep my commitments to fitness
5-Generally lazy
6- not drink enough water
7-eat too many carbs
8-not take my vitamins regularly
9-trying to do this weight-loss, health thing all by myself

Step two is to say each one out loud and then say I used to be that way but now I'm different. 

Step three is reframing them with new endings

1-I used to sneak food but now I openly eat what I should because now I'm different. 
2-I used to eat when I'm not hungry but now I eat only when I'm hungry because now I'm different. 
3-I used to not exercise when I know I should but now I exercise a minimum of four days a week because now I'm different. 
4-I used to not keep my commitments but now I'm a woman of my word because now I'm different
5-I used to be lazy but now I get things done because now I'm different. 
6-I used to not drink enough water but now I get it at least 64 ounces on schedule because now I'm different. 
7-I used to eat too many carbs but now I limit my carbs because now I'm different. 
8-I used to not take my vitamins regularly now I take them on schedule because now I'm different. 
9-I used to try to do all this weight loss and health stuff all by myself but now I'm open and asking for support because now I'm different. 

A nice way to start the new challenge it was very refreshing. I am different and I need to remember that. 



I have been doing a great deal of my exercising using  Just Dance as part of my Give it 100 workout plan.
The Wii has served me well and I will continue to use it when I cannot make it to the gym. It also led me realize how much I like dancing. Which led me back to the gym to do Zumba. I had forgotten how invigorating it is. I haven't done it in months and I am glad that I went. I end up doing more than my standard 30 min workout. I also feel like it gives me a better burn. I can't do it every workout, but I definitely want to make it a few days during the week. It is kinda funny because doing the extra taxing cardio makes me sleepier than usual. I am working on listening better to my body.


Snow Jam #2

Another set of snow and ice issues has me locked down in he house. I do not mind it too much. We have enough supplies. I have gotten to spend quality time with the kids. I exercise using the Wii with Just Dance.
I am surprised that I am almost 1/3 of the way through my 100 days of workouts. I only had 1 hiccup and that occurred around day 29. I had terrible stomach pains that had me throwing up and balled up in the fetal position. So I made up for it the next day and did 2 workouts.

Here is my LONG list of what I have done so far with my 100 workouts.

Give it 100
  1. Jan.   9 30minTreadmill188.
  2. Jan. 10 30min Elliptical
  3. Jan. 11 60min Just DanceHouse
  4. Jan. 12 30min Just Dance
  5. Jan. 13 30min Treadmill
  6. Jan. 14 30min Recumbent & legs
  7. Jan. 15 35min Cardio & abs
  8. Jan. 16 30min Treadmill
  9. Jan. 17 45min 30 walking plus abs 
  10. Jan. 18 30min Wii fit plus 185.6#
  11. Jan. 19 45min Just Dance
  12. Jan. 20 30min Walking (treadmill)
  13. Jan. 21 30min Run/walk C25k w1r1
  14. Jan. 22 30min Just Dance
  15. Jan. 23 30min General Aerobics 
  16. Jan. 24 30min Walk/Run C25k W1R2 185.7#
  17. Jan. 25 30min Cardio Elliptical and Recumbent bike
  18. Jan. 26 30min Cardio Just Dance
  19. Jan. 27 30mins. Upright bike
  20. Jan. 28 2mile walk in the snow
  21. Jan. 29 30mins Just Dance 
  22. Jan. 30 30mins. Just Dance 184.5#
  23. Jan. 31. 30mins low impact cardio
  24. Feb.  1 30 mins walking
  25. Feb.  2 30mins. Treadmill
  26. Feb.  3 30in just dance
  27. Feb. 4 35min Treadmill plus  4 lower body
  28. Feb. 5 treadmill
  29. Feb. 6. Dancing
  30. Feb. 7   Sick. 10k steps
  31. Feb. 8. 30min Tennis & 30 min. treadmill 184.3#
  32. Feb. 9  30 mins. Just Dance
  33. Feb. 10 30 min treadmill Gym
  34. Feb. 11 45min. Just dance
  35. Feb. 12 
  36. Feb. 13
  37. Feb. 14


Day 20 - Snowed in Atlanta

          Well I am sure a lot of people know/heard about what happened in Atlanta Tuesday. We had a snow emergency that paralyzed metro-Atlanta and surrounding cities. I was one of thousands stuck in countless hours of traffic. I left work at 12:45pm when my school district made the last minute decision to close 2 hours earlier. I had sent my husband to pick up our children. He left his job at 11:15am. My daughter caught a ride and made it home before 6pm. That ride was a godsend because over 400 kids were stranded at her high school unable to get home. My husband arrive home around 9:45pm. He came to get me when I decided to park my car about 4 miles from my home. He walked 2 miles to get me then we walked 2 miles back to his car. When we got to our neighborhood we were unable to get the car up the hill due to black ice.  So we parked the car and walked up the hill. I walked through the doors of home so happy...so relived... so thankful.
         Here are some pics of the day after... the snow day.


Give it 100

Well... Let me try this again. I wrote this post and then I lost it. But I guess I was supposed to rewrite it. So I was struggling to find a meaningful way to approach my weight loss challenges. I did not lose any weight over the holidays, but it was my eating. Then as the new year came I ran across an article on Yahoo about a young woman who committed to 100 workouts in 100 days. It was as if a light went off in my head and heart.

I ran the idea by  my husband and he was super supportive. That was refreshing and frightening because I had no reason to not do it. So I did it. I made my 1st Vlog on youtube and I have been making it work ever since.

There have been challenges and my workouts are not as intense as I would like but that was not the intent of my 100 day challenge. The intent was to workout every day for at least 30 minutes. I am enjoying the challenge and learning about myself in the process.

Day 1 Blog here...

Here is what I have done so far.

  1. Jan.   9 30minTreadmill188.1#s
  2. Jan. 10 30min Eliptical
  3. Jan. 11 60min Just DanceHouse
  4. Jan. 12 30min Just Dance
  5. Jan. 13 30min Treadmill
  6. Jan. 14 30min Recumbent & legs
  7. Jan. 15 35min Cardio & abs
  8. Jan. 16 30min Treadmill
  9. Jan. 17 45min 30 walking plus abs
  10. Jan. 18 30min Wii fit plus 185.6#
  11. Jan. 19 45min Just Dance
  12. Jan. 20 30min Walking (treadmill)
  13. Jan. 21 30min Run/walk C25k w1r1
  14. Jan. 22 30min Just Dance
  15. Jan. 23 30min General Aerobics 
  16. Jan. 24 30min Walk/Run C25k W1R2
  17. Jan. 25 30min Cardio Elliptical and Recumbent bike
  18. Jan. 26 30min Cardio Just Dance
Also here is the link to my youtube channel.

Gotta run. It is almost my bed time and I have to prep for 2morrow.


Back to Work Blahs

Yucky. Yucky. Yuck.
I have been off for 2 weeks, It has been a wonderful time off. So wonderful that I do not want to go back to work. So peaceful that I am super excited about summer break.

Workout with hubby plan days. He is doing the Couch to 5K program. I figured I might as well join him at the gym at least a few days a week. I want/need to start weight training so I can build muscles.

Gym days with hubby: Mon-Wed-Sat.

I am not solid on what exercises I want to do for the rest of the month, but I am leaning toward a total body workout to get me back to the gym and back to weights in a non-threatening manner. I found numerous workouts as I have scanned my fitness mags.

I will workout in the early a.m. on Tue., Thurs., and Friday. I like the Biggest Loser Workout but I may quit them if I do the Shape workout I am thinking about. I ended this break weighing in at 187.6. Which is better than gaining but I haven't really lost much in the last month.

I know why. I need to increase my activity and significantly decrease my carbs. Im just being lazy and it shows. I feel it. I have to be more proactive in finishing what  I started. I would like to get out of the 180's this month. That is a lofty goal but it is totally achievable if I set my mind to it.

SO here's to application and determination.


2014- Let's Do This...

I love the New Year. It always brings new goals, new dreams, new inspiration. It does for me at least. This year is no different. I have great goals for myself. However, before I share my goals for 2014 maybe I should review how I did in 2013.

These were my goals from 2013...
  • Vertical Gastric Sleeve Surgery ( completed April 2013)
  • Educational Specialist Degree Completion (achieved December 2013)
  • become a "CrossFit" chick (Do not achieve)
  • increase physical activity and track it (Did it, but not consistently)
  • plan meals weekly (Do not achieve.)
  • VGS prep (5 parts) (Completed March 2013)
  • dejunk my house (Did some of you it but still have a ways to go.)
  • create and follow household chore schedule(Do not achieve.)
  • actively pursue career advancement (Did it, but not consistently)
  • blog minimum 4 days a week (Do not achieve.)
  • QT with hubby increase frequency(Did it, but not consistently)
  • strengthen spiritual life (Do not achieve.)

          At first glance, it would seem that 2013 was not a successful year goal/resolution wise. However, I fee like with all on my plate it was a great year. of course, it could have been better but I am still grateful and pleased with where I ended in 2013. 
          I weighed 255.8 # on Jan 14, 2013 and this morning I weighed 188. That is a total weight loss so far of over 65#s. That alone makes me smile. So now I have to deal with what i want to achieve in 2014. 
There is some obvious similarity in this list compared to last year's list, but that is OK with me. 

2014 Focus Points
Weight Loss

I will share more about these goals in my next blog post.

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