Let me confess I am on my feelings right now so the tone of this blog maybe a tad bit blah. But it gets like that sometime. I am up bright and early at a Spartan event. The event is the Spartan tv show by NBC. My husband was supposed to go with me but he needed to keep working on the cars. So here I stand at an event that I am interested in, excited about all by myself. 

It made me think about my fitness/weight loss/plastic surgery journey. I have had the love and support of several people through my life moments yet in the end I am on my own and left to get it done on my own. Part of me is sad and that fact while another part is proud of it. I have to accept my progress... My success ... My results are in my hands and my hands alone. 

I need to acknowledge my strength, my ability, & my intelligence and how I am enough  to achieve my goals. 

All on my own. 


Human Factor

I am still working through this chapter. I swear it is like eating my vegetables. It talks about the 'human factor' ad how it a can and does effect the change process. There are 2 types of human factors internal and external. I am the internal factor and the people in my life are the external.

Here is how my feedback/response to this...

Internal _all Me
-tendency to procrastinate
-desire/love of sweets
+like to meet people
+like to try new things
+easy to get along
+ability to make a workout plan

Younger kids
Older daughter
Older son



Well I am stuck. Actually it's not about being stuck it's about facing some truths that I don't or won't or can't or choose not to deal with at the moment in terms of making real change. The chapter that I'm supposed to be reading I have briefly looked at and that's it. And that's the problem in a nutshell it is a chapter that talks about the human factor. The human factor is actually the biggest factor that I think can positively and or negatively affect the changes that I want to make in terms of improving my health. 

So far from my reading I know there are internal factors and external factors I am the internal factors and all the other humans in my life are the external factors. That in and of itself is challenging to be very honest with myself about why I do certain things or even be transparent about the things I do that hinder my ability to truly reach optimal health. 

So in an attempt to take baby steps let's at least list my stuff if I can and then I'll just list the people in my life and then I will later address their connection or their relation are there how they factored into my Health goals. 

Internal (MY) issues
-Lack of knowledge 

External - other people
Younger kids

Ohhhh sleepy will continue later. 


Highlight and Categorize

Highlight and categorize your (my) obstacles.

 Goal: To be fit and healthy

What stands in the way of me achieving my goals....?  I used to think it was/is things outside of my control, but in reality it is things mainly within my control and sphere of influence. That is frustrating and humbling to accept.  So here are what I came up with as my obstacles... in ABC order..

  1. Activities with the kids
  2. Being tired
  3. Busy schedule
  4. Eat unhealthy food
  5. Family obligations/Leisure time
  6. Inconsistent motivation
  7. Long commute
  8. No concrete meal plan
  9. No set workout schedule/plan
  10. Not knowledgeable enough in terms of proper diet and exercise programs/methodology
  11. Responsibilities from work
  12. Small support system

Within my control
Being tired
Eat unhealthy food
Family obligations/Leisure time
Inconsistent motivation
No concrete meal plan
No set workout schedule/plan
Not knowledgeable enough in terms of proper diet and exercise programs/methodology
Small support system

I Can influence

Activities with the kids
Busy schedule
Long commute

Outside me of my control
Responsibilities from work



The first letter is S.H.I.F.T. stands for "Specify your desired outcome".  It sounds simple enough but I can tell you from personal experience that it is not as easy as it sounds.

There are so many things I want to improve in my life. I sometimes wonder if that is because I am never satisfied or because I am someone who is looking to be my best person. I like to think that it is the latter. :-)
Some of the areas I want to improve in no particular order are:

  • my career
  • my organization
  • my fitness/health level
  • my finances
  • my friendship circle
So focusing in on one is more challenging than I originally thought it would be. But since I have signed up for 6 OCRs (Obstacle Course Races) and a 15k in 2016. I need to get my health and fitness on the forefront of my priority list. 

So there it is. I want to be healthier. Wow... that sounds so generic and bland. So i need to do some closer evaluations.

I want to be able to run a minimum of 30 minutes without stopping, be able to cross monkey bars, have my body weight and body fat in a normal range before my 45 birthday in 2016.

Questions posed by the book....

What is prompting me to seek this goal/outcome?  This is not a new goal for me. I have been pursuing health and fitness for awhile. I have in the past come up short of reaching my goals. I want to be more consistent and deliberate in how you chose to treat my physical body.

Why do I care so much now about reaching this goal?  I have eliminated other issues that were holding me back. I had the VSG so  now I cant over eat. I had the MMO so now my baby bulge is gone. So now I just need to get focused and get fit.

What would happen if I didn't reach this goal?  I would stay the same weight and have the same abilities physically that i have now. Over time, however, those would diminish and I could gain weight or lose muscle and/or cardio strength.

So that is more goal... but I wonder if I am covering it with enough detail. Only time will tell. 


S.H.I.F.T. Intro

I love self-help books. I always have. I love learning about myself and others. I love thinking about my actions, needs, motives, etc. So now as my 44th birthday approaches Im reading a
few books about habits & change. My latest book is titled Make Your Shift: The Five Most Powerful Moves You Can Make to Get Where YOU Want to Go. I am reading and listening to it compliments of Kindle Unlimited...where you can checkout up to eBooks at a time. This book is my digit and includes audio which is great for my commute.

I am reflecting and pausing at the first set of questions as I do have some real goals I want to accomplish. The hard challenge was focusing what "GOAL" I wanted to address first. I choose getting healthy.  

  • What is prompting me to seek this goal/desired outcome...?
  • Why do I care so much abut reaching this goal...?
  • What would happen if I didnt care about this goal...?
Slee[y gonna ponder this questions over a good nights sleep.




Change is hard. I want to be a real athlete. I want to be faster, stronger, fitter, and overall better physically. It takes such a shift.. mentally--physically-- and emotionally. The hardest part is the mental and the emotional. I fight this battle to do what is right and do what is best. The lazy ...eat whatever and do whatever attitude is easier..yet painful. Painful when you know you could've done more or been better. I am putting stop gaps in place to give myself a better chance at success.

Only time will tell if I will ever be satisfied or at least content with where I am headed and even , more importantly where I am at.

Until then I will keep moving forward toward the direction of my goals.. even if I occasionally revert to old habits... I will  ot quit on myself



I have been fighting a cold all week. Headaches. Body aches. Sore throat. The works. and I am pretty sure that it had to do with the fact that we ripped and ran all last weekend. I hope this weekend it is a lot less of it all. No major plans except for Angel cheering on Saturday then movies and a bunch of candy Saturday night. Hoping to go to church on Sunday and maybe to the gym as well. But right now I just feel exhausted. 

I feel also kind of overwhelmed and under inspired at work and I'm dealing with that. So I've had a lot of time lately or I should say I've spent a lot of time lately really thinking about what I want to do the second half of my life and I just don't have any clear-cut answers yet and that is a bit unnerving. 

I know I get a lot of joy out of helping people and I want to work in some capacity where I feel useful and helpful and appreciated for the work that I do. I really need to be proactive and open-minded see if any opportunities can come my way because that would be such a blessing.

The scale isn't moving but I haven't been eating great or working out much as I'm sick. I can't wait to feel better. 


Clean eating

Been thinking a lot lately about changing what I eat. I know I need to eat a lot healthier but it's going to take a lot of work. Looking into clean eating and hoping to start with clean breakfast meals next week. I will update and let it be known how it worked out.

On a lighter note my mud run that was a 5K on Sunday was great. Had a blast even though it was super cold. Looking forward to a 5K next Saturday night and got a break in my new sneakers before  


I'm back

I know it may seem like forever since I've put a post here. So much is going on in the past 9 to 10 months that it's even hard to quantify. I had my plastic surgery in June and it was successful. It was a very positive experience overall. And that I am very thankful for. So now I'm back to my normal self as normal as I can be and I am continuing my journey to be as fit and healthy as I Can.

So that means I have a new fire and a new desire to clean myself out make myself stronger and just overall turn myself into the best version of me that I can be. I decided that I want to focus on a few core goals as it relates to my health and fitness. 

My current exercise goals are:
five days a week of morning cardio 
Two days maybe three days a week of CrossFit 
two days of running a 5K

My nutrition goals are a bit shaky. I know that means I need to focus on that more scenario where I'm unsure. My goal for food this week is to track everything I. I eat. My second goal is to come up with a meal plan that I will actually implement. 

On a simpler note I want to take better care of my face. I know it sounds vain but I want to age gracefully. 

In an attempt to be more accountable I even bought a habit tracking app. I'm excited to see how I do. 
And oh yea  reading a self help book  titled 30 days: change Your Habits Change your Life (30D:CYH-CYL).



I finally got under 180. This is an amazing 1st. I have to stay the course to not go over 180 again. I struggle with consistency and this new weight 'zone' is a test. I have to stay the course. Low carb. High protein. Lotsa water. and Physical activity everyday.

I am being for cognizant of my thoughts and my diet. I made a wall size poster to hold me accountable for 2015. I give myself a sticker if I workout for at least 30 mins or log 10,000 steps.

I know I can get to 10,000 steps a day. I am concerned about making sure that I workout at a higher intensity. That could be my downfall if I am not careful.

So that is all for now. I have worked out every day this week starting Monday. So now the trick is upping the ante and make a real workable exercise plan. I have also avoided eating out for 2 days in a row and that for me is a major feat. 

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